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Lori C posted a condolence
Monday, February 4, 2013
I miss you mom. So many times i think of you. Wish I could talk with you. It still doesn't feel real.
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Lori C posted a condolence
Monday, October 1, 2012
Thinking about you a lot lately and today. Hard to believe it will be three years for you and four months for dad. I really miss you both right now.
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Lori Chamot posted a condolence
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Hi Mom, you can rest well now together with Dad. I love you both and miss you both always.
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Lori daughter posted a condolence
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Hi mom, Uncle Howie, John and Lara's mom all passed away this week. They have all joined you. We miss you. It has been a tough week. Glad it is over.
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Lori daughter posted a condolence
Thursday, March 22, 2012
just thinking about you. So much I wish I could share with you. Love ya
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Lori daughter posted a condolence
Monday, February 6, 2012
Mom soon it will be your birthday. I wish I could buy you your roses like I use to. I think about you everyday. I wish you didn't have to leave but I am glad you don't hurt. I will forever miss you.
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Lori daughter posted a condolence
Friday, January 13, 2012
Miss you mom. Thinking about you. you did so much for us and were so much to us. It is days like these that I wish you were here. love you.
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cj lj posted a condolence
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Christmas is finally over. it was a lot of work. miss u not being here. dad sure does too. love u
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lori daughter posted a condolence
Thursday, December 15, 2011
It is almost Christmas again . we miss you every day. your spirit lives thru us as we start to get ready for the holidays . wish you were here. love you always.
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cj lj posted a condolence
Friday, November 25, 2011
Mom i wish you were still here. I need some mother support. I guess just stay near me for the next few months or as long as it takes. I love you and miss you a lot. Thanksgiving was nice. Just the five of us. Only one not there was Garrett and Scott, they were missed.
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cj lj posted a condolence
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Happy Thanksgiving. Danielle got her first deer yesterday. She was so proud we all were. Love you and miss you so much.
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cj lj posted a condolence
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Hi thinking of you today. Danielle wrote a message about how special and how she misses you. You really touched our hearts and left us with a deep impression. You will be forever missed. Love u
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cj lj posted a condolence
Monday, October 10, 2011
Hi mom
just letting you know i love you. Garrett will be 18 Wednesday. Looking at college. They are sure growing up. He looks like such a grown man now. Kyle too. Danielle is just beautiful. We were talking about you. She misses her Grandma a lot. Love you.
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cj lj posted a condolence
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Hi mom. Today you are on my mind. Today we said goodbye in 2009. Hardest day of my life. I miss you so much. I can't believe it has been two years already. It feels like last night some days.
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Thursday, September 22, 2011
hi ma,
well i talked to school tonight. I was awarded an alumni grant for graduating with honors. I guess I am going for my masters. Who would have thought. I just have to decide what i want to specialize in. Wish you could be here to enjoy this. I think Kyle and I will graduate together. funny huh. I am so proud of him. He is going to transfer to either texas or cobbleskill for his masters. I love you
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Friday, September 16, 2011
watch over Danielle. I am worried about her today. She needs you by her side. I love you.
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cj/ lj/ posted a condolence
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Hi mom just wanted to say hi. It's my b'day. 45 today. Nice day. Missed you a lot. I made the best of it. I am told it is time i am happy. Hard to be happy with no mom. I try though. I not good at fake but i try. Lost a lot but i have a lot too. Love you
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lori daughter posted a condolence
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Hi mom. Just want to say hi to you. Thinking about you today. I was sad today. Missing you. Wish you were here to talk to. Have stuff to talk about. You never get everything said to your mom. Lol. Been doing lots of thinking and changing. Kids are all getting so old. You would be so proud of them. I know i am. They are carving their path in life. It is cool to watch.
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Sunday, September 11, 2011
another year is passing me by. my birthday is wednesday. guess we are going to dinner. some new place in victor. Tim has been promising to take me for many occasions and has not yet. We will see. He restored another jeep. Dad cannot see the color. I told him he is missing out. Bobby turned 50. Went to his party with Dad. He has a nice girlfriend now. seems happy. I hope this one is a keeper for him. Miss you been thinking a lot about you lately.
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Monday, September 5, 2011
I still hate seeing your picture on this website. Garrett and Danielle are starting back to school this week. Danielle will be a sophmore and Garrett a senior this year. Kyle started college last week. He loves it. Who would have guessed he would love college after all he put me through in high school. That boy has really grown up. You would be so proud of the man he is today. He doesnt take any short cuts with school. For me I think I am going back to school again. Lol, Perhaps I will be a professional student the rest of my life. Danielle has her whole life all planned out. Garrett I dont know. right now he just wants out of high school. The are all so unique and special in their own way. You are probably laughing at that comment I am sure. I miss you and love you
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Thursday, September 1, 2011
I wish we could talk. I really need to unload some stuff to you. I hate that history repeats itself. Especially when it is the bad stuff. I really need you right now mom. Miss you
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Monday, August 29, 2011
Hi Mom, The kids are getting ready for school. It is that time again. Danielle is getting ready to bowl again. I don't like this time of year. summer is coming to an end. Soon it will be two years since you have been gone. It has not gotten any easier for me. But I keep plugging alone. I find it helps when I focus my strength on helping others. It is something I have always enjoyed. I still take care of my own. I am faced with a lot of that right now. Sometimes, I really hate not having you around to sound things off on or to vent to. But I am working through that. I miss you
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, August 25, 2011
ENROLLED KYLE IN COLLEGE TODAY. HE STARTS ON TUESDAY. HE IS FINALLY DOING IT MOM. HE IS EXCITED AND NERVOUS. I AM HAPPY FOR HIM. HE THANKED ME FOR BEING THERE FOR HIM THEN ASKED IF I WILL HELP HIM IF HE GETS STUCK WITH HOMEWORK. LOL FUNNY I HAD TROUBLE. HA HA. I AM SO PROUD OF HIM. I KNEW HE WOULD FIND HIS WAY. ONE DOWN TWO TO GO HUH. I AM STILL JOB HUNTING AND DAD IS STILL DRIVING ME CRAZY. LOL BUT IT IS OKAY. I LOVE HIM. TIM IS BUILDING ANOTHER JEEP. WE ARE KEEPING BUSY. LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ALWAYS.
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Sunday, August 21, 2011
i did it mom. graduated. diploma came. hardest part to swallow is your not here. As proud as I am I am troubled with it. you wanted this and yet you cant see it. that sucks. sorry I should have done it earlier. time was wasted on my youth huh. Love you.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Hi mom , nice day today. I really miss you. These are difficult days. I saw Ethan and Thayer the other day. Dad went up and talked to them. Boy are they all grown up. They were such little boys when you took care of them. Dad could not believe how grown up they are. Dad surprises me how he has come out of his shell. There always seems like there is a piece of the puzzle we cannot find. something missing. you. But your in a better place a peaceful place a restful place. I am happy for you. I miss our talks and all that we use to do together and the fun we shared but we all have our time and there is is nothing that can be done about that. It is what it is. I just cherish the memories now. We talk about you often. And laugh a lot about the times we had. You were one in a million. your time was short but you left your mark.
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Sunday, August 7, 2011
hi mom, rainy day today. this place is not so great. your in a better place than we are. Dad misses you so much. I feel bad for him. I wish I could do more for him. I know I cannot . Garrett is going to be a senior this year. hard to believe are little buddy is so big. I wish you were here to see him. I know how special he is to you and I. The kids miss you so much. Your dying has hit us all so hard. I love you mom. We are doing okay
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Monday, August 1, 2011
hi mom, had a couple of minutes. wanted to say hi. i havent been doing to well lately but that is ok. I will get through it all. You remember if it is weird it is me. ha ha ... feels like my body is coming apart. I really miss you a lot but i am doing ok now. I have changed many things and i am not like i was anymore. Thats good mom. moving forward now. I have a lot to do to finish some things up. I hope I get it all done in time. the clock is ticking. Unfortunately my arms are not as good as they use to be but I will do my best to get everything done in time. you know I work hard at deadlines huh. You should be here typing for me. ha ha Well I miss you mom. I love you always. I will write when I can.
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Hi i know i have not written. But my life is passing me by. Busy. I stated to see some things in me that jeannie had said about people that surround me or i think she was the one. I don't know. To long ago. Lot of stuff going on. I don't write much but i don't forget. I love you forever. Surgery again this week. No biggie. I don't care. Still hurting from the last. Kyle might be next. Miss you.
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
You are still a fighter... I see you don't like changes. Thanks for the sign good or bad. .... I graduated. don't think it is enough. but it is done. time to go and move on and leave it behind. love you
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Saturday, July 9, 2011
hi mom... three days left of school... it is pretty surreal. I have to find something else to do with all my time. cant let my mind go. dont want to feel the pain. I am standing my ground and changing some things. hope it is what you would want. I dont know your not here to ask. It is my hope that you would be happy, somehow I dont think you would. but I have to do what I have to do. I love you.
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
hi mom I guess I dont know what to say other than Hi. I love you. I miss you. To much to talk about and too much to type. so I am not going to. Lot of changes. wish I could talk to you.
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CJ/ Lj posted a condolence
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Nine more days mom and I will be done with school. It is amazing that this time it is so clear. I have made some major changes in my life. It has helped with school. It was hard but it had to be done. Tell sharon Jill is going through alot. I am helping her. She would be proud of what I am doing for her. Dad and I were talking today about you and the past and what happened with him. He is really hurting a lot too. This is real tough stuff. You leaving messed up so much. It should not have happened. But what can you do. It is better than the pain you were in huh. I love you so much mom you were so much to me as I was to you.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Friday, July 1, 2011
Mom, I sure need strength... I don't know where I am going to get it. I am struggling so much. I had hand surgery. Hurts a bit but not to much. another is coming up. tough night,. I am at the end of my rope mom. you know you were there too
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Week 3 mom... I am so stressed... I have never been so stressed out... lol. I don't know if I will make it. I so wish i had you to talk with. i miss having someone to talk to. It is real hard to just swallow my thoughts. I know I have Tim and he is great but I liked the girl talk we had. I love you. It has been a rough road here. not so great. Danielle is so happy with Patrick. It is so nice to see. You would have liked him. He is funny. Odd, he fits nice in our family. Dad get's a kick out of those two. We have been doing some different stuff lately that has to be done. It is okay.
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Thursday, June 23, 2011
one of the worse days of my life today. this place is starting to suck.
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cj/ lj posted a condolence
Monday, June 20, 2011
i hooked tim's phone up with television. His fathers day gift. boy mom it seems there are changes lately alot, I wish I could talk about them. I hate having to use an internet to talk. or looking at you here. not right.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, June 19, 2011
good fathers day today... dad was with scott bobby and lara golfing. I cleaned his car for him and we hung out later. his car has never looked so good. Missed you though but I think he enjoyed himself. I spent the day with Timmy. Now homework. Love you.
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Cj/ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, June 18, 2011
beautiful day today. tomorrow is fathers day. Bobby is taking dad out to spend father's day with him. Not sure what we will do. You know Tim... he wants to be at toy shows. I hope somewhere in the day there is family time. Kyle is gone. Dont know if he will be here or not. Wish you were. Things seemed nicer when you were here. Now it is just so scattered without foundation. I dont know. I guess to different people things mean different things. I know what it means to me. miss ya
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, June 16, 2011
What a night mom... What goes around comes around huh. Boy am I getting mine. Not a good night. Very bad night. Glad it is coming to a close. Always I love you . ...
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
man the forces are against me tonight. My door never closed with visitors. Oh well. miss you like crazy. I miss laughing with you and talking and hanging out. A friend of mine, her daughter and her were together when her daughter got hurt. made me miss you more. Realize I am unwanted. it okay i know you needed to go.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Mom... Well I am working real hard right now. I am changing some things, long time over due. It cannot wait anymore. So the time is now. I hope it is for the good. I hope I do the right thing. I guess it is what it is. People change huh, time for me now. Love you
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Friday, June 10, 2011
Well, I am going through several changes in my life right now. I do not know why mom, but you are right, I never do things the easy way do I. I take it all on all at once and I change it all at the same time then hope for the best when all is said and done. This has been a long time coming huh, I hope I am doing the right thing... wont know till it is over and I look back on things. love you always miss you everyday...
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Tough mom day today... I hate to see my kids struggle. our little sweetheart is doing great with her boyfriend but she is still getting picked on by people in school. If only he were in the same school. I don't get why people who say they are your friends one minute treat you like crap the next minute. I get the same shit given to me. I guess we are both just to sweet. lol... easy targets. You raised me to see the good in everyone. i believe that still. I did the same with her. yet people today take advantage of that. They seem to enjoy making her hurt. I feel so sad for her. I love you mom
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Mom today was not good. I am really struggling right now. I think I may have found my next job. I hooked up today with a network that is looking for a psychologist in september. she wants to keep in touch with me. I told her when I graduate. I hope you will be proud. I am missing you so much. I keep thinking about what I am missing out on now. It make me sad.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, June 6, 2011
hey there... I put one of the most beautiful pictures of you on dads phone for him. looks nice. I have been having trouble lately missing you like crazy. thinking about some stuff we use to do over the summer. Having a hard time with some of the real special things like the balloon festival. Well I will have to figure out how to get through this. I love you
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Hey ma... Just filling you in with all thats up here. dad is busy making sure everyone is taking care of. He spent time with Scott, Lara and Jonathan today. I am glad he did. It is nice that they are together more now. We went to one of my favorite places today. I took a day off from school and we went to Letchworth. I just love it there. Remember, I make my annual trip there and the balloon festival every year. I will miss not doing that with you this year. I know how much fun we had together. This will be the first year I attempt it without you. Last year I could not do it. I am going to try to take a friend for support. We will see how that pans out. It usually doesn't. I will try though. I know it won't be the same. But it will be beautiful just the same. I love you so much
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Mom I am back to teaching dad how to use a new phone again. funny he learns the phone better than he does the carry case. I saw Uncle Howie today. He looks good. He misses Aunt Sharon so much still after 15 years. Tim helps him out from time to time. I guess corrissa is living on her own now. Kristin is having trouble with that. I am going to bowl with dad, tony and Marylou this fall to help Dad out. I think they will all be sorry they asked. Love you mom always.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, June 2, 2011
MOM... I LOVE YOU. BEEN TALKING WITH DAD. TOLD HIM YOU VISITED HIM BECAUSE HE IS NOT BEHAVING. HA HA. I REALLY NEED YOU. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I DON'T GET WHY PEOPLE KEEP HURTING ME. I ALWAYS DO MY BEST TO BE NICE AND TO EVERYTHING TO MAKE PEOPLE FEEL SPECIAL BUT I ALWAYS GET HURT BY THE ONES I TRUST. OH WELL. I CANNOT JUDGE NOT MY PLACE. I WISH I COULD TALK WITH YOU. I AM HURTING SO MUCH. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. DAD IS HAPPY TONIGHT. WE HAD A GOOD TALK.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Hi Mom, I have been blessed with visitors coming out of the woodwork. I guess you know when I need people huh. Mac came over with the kids. I just love her. she is my best friend. Jill came over to. I love seeing her. Michelle wants me to go to dinner with her. She misses me a lot. I am going to. But I need to stay with school. I know I am pushing away from people. But mom you know how I am. I love you and it hurts to not have you but whatever.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Hi mom boy is it stormy out tonight. The weather has been very bad lately. I am doing better now. I have things into perspective. I feel better with it now. I know i may falter a little now and then but the perspective has help me out tremendously. It has taken a long time but i have put things in order now. it is hard with what I have to do. Real hard. Don't worry, you have a strong kid with a good head on her shoulder. I know you knew I would get through it better than I did. I did pray for help through it but i could not get it.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Hi Mom, we have some crazy weather here. there are tornado watches all over the southerntier. rain rain rain. getting sick of it. I joined another country club this year. not getting out much, hope it wasn't a mistake. I am doing pretty good right now. I feel great, I am getting together with Michelle in a couple weeks for dinner. I miss her it has been a while since I have seen her. We always stay in touch but have not really gotten together since you died. she always checks on me. we are real good friends now. Dad keeps moving furniture in his apartment. restless i guess. he wants you. we all miss you and love you.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Mom today is a little better than yesterday. I am still struggling but I am getting by. I is so hard without you to turn to. I have to do this alone. I am use to your support and advise. I have some very difficult issues right now and i really wish I could just vent to you. I am hurting inside real bad. But I love you all the same. Miss you every day. Not a day goes by that you are not on my mind.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, May 23, 2011
Hi just wanted to let you know it yet another day that has come and gone and you are once again on my mind. I don't think you will ever not be on my mind. I miss you soooo much. I hate not having you around. It sucks so bad. I am so lost without you. I graduate soon. I am not going though. I see no point in it. I don't want to celebrate it without you there. I finished this for you. I wanted to give it up after you died. but I knew this was one thing you wanted for me, college. So I did it for you mom. One class away. I can't tell you how many times I wanted to quit. This has been so hard. I love you and hate not having you to talk to. i could really use you right now.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Henrietta had their memorial day parade today. It rained and we got wet. Not many people there either ...I WISH I COULD CALL YOU TONIGHT. THIS IS ONE OF THOSE NIGHT I REALLY NEED YOU. I AM SAD TONIGHT. I NEED TO TALK TO YOU. I JUST WISH I COULD CALL YOU. I MISS YOU RIGHT NOW. YOU REALLY KNEW HOW TO HELP ME THROUGH THE TOUGH STUFF. MISS THAT, I AM STRUGGLING WITH IT NOW. I AM LOST WITH WHERE TO GO FOR ANSWERS. I LOVE YOU.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Hi Mom.... played my first round of golf. it was very wet. I didn't do so hot but I had fun. I wish we could play together. I still feel empty inside. I don't think that void will heal. I am getting use to having no one to talk to. I will always miss you and always love you. I think about you everyday.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Hi Mom... Thanks... Boy do I miss you. I am really trying but i really miss you.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Hi Mom....Danielle is missing you so let her know your near her. She was crying last night. We are all having days here and there. How can we not you were really special. It is real hard, but we do what we have to. Danielle and Patrick are doing great. He is really great. They are cute together.I love you mom so much. I miss you. I could really use you right now. The writing is really on the wall at work right now. I guess I know what I must do. It is horrible. But whatever no biggie. Just do as the writing says huh. God I wish I could just talk to you. I need you.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, May 16, 2011
HI MOM..... I REALLY NEED YOU RIGHT NOW. I JUST WISH YOU WERE HERE. I KNOW YOU CANNOT BE AND I KNOW THE LORD CALLED YOU BECAUSE IT WAS YOUR TIME. I GUESS I JUST DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I SHOULD I AM AN ADULT BUT I DO NOT. I GUESS I JUST NEED ADVISE. I RELY ON YOU FOR THAT TOO MUCH I GUESS. STUPID HUH.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Mom........ I'm sorry. I just cannot do it. I know what I said but life is getting in the way...... Sorry to disappoint you. I love you the same.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, May 12, 2011
hey mom... doing okay here. working real hard on things. miss you. taking some time off. We are redoing the gardens. you know it is hard for me because you were the garden queen not me. I can't design crap. But we will see how it turns out. Tim has one idea and I have your gardens in mind. Somewhere we have to meet in the middle. I think he will win. ha ha. I don't really have maintaining time. We stopped your dogs from barking. ha ha. They are good boys now. Well I love you mom always.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, May 9, 2011
Hi Mom... I am worried about Dad. I know I cannot help him with his grieve. But it is hard to watch. he is suffering so much without you. His grieve is so forfront and life is so behind him. He really needs you. his heart is breaking. He just loves you so much mom. i once though I could help others. Not so sure now. Love you so much mom. I miss have you around with you I had dad without you I don't have you or dad. always I will love you
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Happy Mother's Day Mom. ... I sure did miss you today. I went for a massage. something i normally love. did nothing for me. Tim made me brunch. dad was suppose to join us. He didn't, that made me sad. Chamot's came over, yet i felt so alone. Tim and I remodeled the garden, our mother's day norm. I was not into it cuz that is your thing. I just felt lost this year in the day. But I tried real hard for danielle. I missed you very much mom. I love you so much.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Friday, May 6, 2011
Hi mom... just me missing you as this weekend is approaching. I know it shouldn't matter because you never celebrated it with me anyway but I always wished you had. I use to hate that you would never be around for me on Mother's day. I always wanted to make it special for you but you would never be around. So I guess this is no different. Just now I cannot even call you or drop off a card or gift for you to get when you come home. Oh well. I loved you then dispite not being with you and I love you now despite not having you. Happy Mother's day. I will be with Danielle in the morning and the family the rest of the day as well as dad and the in laws. But I will think of you.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, May 5, 2011
HI MOM. WELL THE PAIN IN MY HEAD IS BACK IN FULL RAGE. DOC IS ADJUSTING STUFF AGAIN. HERE WE GO AGAIN. ANYWAY, GOT A MEETING TOMORROW NIGHT. THIS WILL BE A TOUGH ONE. HOPE ALL GOES WELL. I WILL BE THAT STRONG TOUGH TYRANT THAT I WAS WITH YOUR DOCS. HA HA I KNOW I CAN DO IT. I TALKED TO SCOTT TONIGHT. IT WAS NICE. ALL IS GOOD HERE AND WE ARE DOING GREAT. WE MISS YOU BUT THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE. YOU WERE THE GLUE THAT HELD US TOGETHER. WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
HEY MOM.....I THINK YOU WOULD BE SMILING DOWN ON ME TODAY. I AM FINALLY DOING SOMETHING GOOD. I AM HOPING SOMETHING COMES OUT OF IT. BUT I AM NERVOUS. NEW GROUND BUT IT WILL BE OKAY. LOVE YOU
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, May 2, 2011
hi mom... shitty day today. it is raining again. there has been some real good people dying lately. special ones that I am close to. Unfortunately, I cannot bring myself to attend their funerals. I don't know what it is but I just can't go there. People my age getting real sick. doesn't make sense mom. It is like God is cleaning house down here. It is sad. Kelly came to visit me. I was surprised, haven't seen her in a long time. It was nice. MAC's boys birthday's are coming up, they will be nine. It is their communion also this year. Kyle is looking for another job already. not satisfied with target. oh well. he is falling back again. we need to give him a shove back on track again. I don't know about these boys. driving me crazy...lol I know I wasn't this hard ha ha. I was an angel huh.. ha ha ha ha... love you mom
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, May 1, 2011
hi mom.... dad was being a brat tonight mocking out my cooking. i told him i was going to change the locks on the house if he didn't start to behave. He is such a snot. ha ha. I gave him dessert anyway. Danielle had Patrick over for dinner tonight. You would like him, he is very polite and very nice. Tim's parents were here too. I had to work on her phone. Tim's dad was getting mesmorized by your fish tank. I think he is going to want one. ha ha. He said it was so relaxing. I told him that I just love to watch them swim when i am stressed. Guess what... Two more classes mom and I will finally be a college graduate. I sure wish you could have made it to see me graduate. Tell Grandma I finally did it. I might have to continue for the masters. Some things have happened that have changed my plans a bit. I have to call Colorado to check into things tomorrow. That will make me a Doctor mom. Grandma would be so proud of me. huh. Remember she said I won't be happy until I am a Doctor of something. lol. God I miss you all so much. I wish we could have savored some of our moments together for a little longer. cherish the moment they never last sure has more meaning now. Love you so much mom. wish you were here. till we meet again, there will forever be a void.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, April 30, 2011
mom i went to the golf range with tim today. dad came later. it was so nice to see him coaching tim with his golf. the two of them are like a father and son together. it was real nice to see. I hung all his girl golfers in his living room for him. He loved it. danielle made him a frame for his birthday all about golfing too. He said that made the wall look so good. He was so happy to have his picture of the women golfers up. Bobby and him played golf today too. He misses playing with you. He said that you relaxed him. I don't know why, you always kicked his ass. ha ha. Now we play with him. we joined chili country clubed this year. I will try to play with him as much as possible to help him. I love him so much mom just like you. You both mean the world to me. I am glad I have such great parents. You raised me well. Thanks.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, April 30, 2011
MOM DANIELLE IS SO HAPPY WITH HER BOYFRIEND. HE IS SO SPECIAL TO HER. HE IS A VERY NICE GUY. I HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH A LOT OF STUFF LATELY. IT HAS BEEN VERY HARD BUT I AM GETTING THROUGH IT LITTLE BY LITTLE. I AM PRETTY MAD ABOUT IT BUT WHATEVER IT IS NO BIGGIE I HAVE TO DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO. I JUST DON'T LIKE IT. SOMETIMES IT REALLY STRUGGLE WITH IT. FOR SOME REASON THE ANGER OF IT IS GETTING ME THROUGH IT. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I KNOW YOUR NEAR ME AND I KNOW YOU WILL BE THERE WHEN I NEED YOU. THAT'S COOL. I FEEL REALLY BAD FOR SCOTT HE CANT CATCH A BREAK HUH. IT IS TOO BAD. HE IS SUCH A GREAT GUY. I LOVE HIM. HE TRIES SO HARD. ONE DAY. I DON'T KNOW WHAT MY FUTURE WILL BRING NOW. MY PATH HAS CHANGED ONCE AGAIN. THE LORD HAS A DIFFERENT PLAN FOR ME ONCE AGAIN. I GUESS I NEED TO FOLLOW HIS LEAD.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Hi mom...been thinking about you today. i think it is just mothers day coming up. i wish you were here. i made all these beautiful mothers day gift. i have been giving them to just mothers because i cant give them to you. i really want you to have them. i know how much you love my artwork. I have been in such a funk lately. You would have laughed tonight. the dogs went out to play and my two found mud puddles and went in them and splashed around then proceded to roll around in them. Soady was no longer white. ha ha. You know how much she loves her bath time. I get to get even. last night I had to split up a dog fight when michelles st. bernard got loose. that was not fun. An old lady was stuck in the middle. I had to walk her home she was having trouble breathing. I felt sorry for her. Poor lady she was like 75 or 80. I was happy I was there for her. You know me. I love to help people. makes me feel good inside. Unfortunately they blamed her for walking her dog by the house. But they should control their own dog in my opinion. Im just glad the lady was okay. God I miss have you to share stories with. Dad wondered why I was out all night and questioned why I got home so late. I laughed, it reminded me of my teen years. I made curfew mom 11:30 ha ha. Love you. Miss you every day.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, April 25, 2011
MOTHERS DAY.... MOM IT HAS TO BE THE WORSE TIME FOR ME. I LOOK AT CARDS. I HAVE TO BUY AND THINK TO MYSELF I WISH I COULD BY THEM FOR YOU, BUT HOW COULD YOU GET IT. YOU CANT. I MAKE GIFTS FOR OTHERS AND THINK I WISH I COULD FOR YOU, YOU WOULD LOVE IT. BUT I CANT YOU CANT ENJOY IT. WHAT IS THE POINT. I CANT SHARE IT. THING HAPPEN I GO TO CALL YOU TO HERE THIS NUMBER IS DISCONNECTED. YOUR NO LONGER THERE. I HATE THIS SO MUCH. SO I MAKE STUFF AND DO I THROW IT OUT. I GET A CARD DO I THROW IT OUT. OR DO I JUST WALK AWAY AND CRY. BE STRONG FOR THE KIDS WHEN INSIDE I JUST CANT STAND IT. i DON'T KNOW MOM IT SUCKS MOM. I HATE IT SO MUCH. I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU. I TRY TO MOVE FORWARD BUT I FEEL FAKE AND EMPTY INSIDE. A PERSON I HAVE NEVER BEEN BEFORE. SO NOW I HATE WHO I STAND FOR. BUT I LOVE YOU ALWAYS.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, April 24, 2011
hi mom. Easter is over. we went to tims moms for dessert. i tried to put an end to all the turmoil in the family. I made gifts for all the moms and gave them it for mothers day. I am hoping that the animosity will be over now. It was a gesture of goodness. I hope it works. I am tired of all the fighting in the family. I guess my nieces miss me. They were very close to me today. I was surprised. They will be texting me later. I still felt miles away today. I missed you throughout it all.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Happy Easter Mom... I can't believe another easter has gone by without you here. I will miss you so much today. This is your favorite time of year. We would be hitting the garden stores about now huh and you would have me working my ass off on your yard making it look nice while mine looked like crap because I was tired after working on yours. ha ha. Good plan. Guess what. Our boy Garrett is a man now. he is drinking coffee. can you believe that, mr finicky. ha ha. I love him so much I know you do too. He has always been special to us huh. I wish you could see Danielle with her boyfriend. They are so cute together. Kyle is so nice to him, remember how protective he was of Danielle. You can still see it with both boys. I love that. Dad reminded me of the days when Grandpa us to cook for you. How you were picky and grandpa huss force you to eat with your eyes closed. ha ha. Danielle ate for Patrick but came home and told me she liked mine better. she is still a suck up to her mommy. I love my kids so much mom. I get what you mean now. Empty nesters....
C
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Saturday, April 23, 2011
HI Mom.... took dad out for dinner for his birthday last night. He seemed to enjoy it. Also, bought him a cart so he can walk on the golf course. I think he had a nice day except no Carol. I spent the morning today with MAC. I enjoyed it. we went out to breakfast then shopping. MaryLou is over visiting Dad. I am giving them some alone time. He needs people. She is buzzing your dogs again. ha ha. Thanks for the other day mom. I needed that so much. I love you. I am missing you so much right now. I see all these things in the stores and just think oh mom would just love that. Today I was looking at flowers and thinking how beautiful your yard must be especially that tree I bought you for mothers day. I cant even go over there. Dustin and Lore invite me but I cant go. I feel bad but it bothers me too much. You loved flowers. I am actually ripping out my flower beds because it hurts so much. I love and miss you mom
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, April 21, 2011
HI MOM... i wish i spent more showing my sadness while you were dying instead of hiding it and denying it. who knew that the one you thought was so strong would fall so hard and have so much trouble getting back. i don't think i will get back. i loved you too much. This has altered me. I love you mom
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
HI MOM.... dad's birthday is coming up. Friday. Then comes one of the hardest day for me ever. I hate mother's day worse than any other. I don't know what to do on that day. i have to buy a card but i look at them and want to buy for you but i have no where to take it. so i just read them. It sucks I have no one to buy for
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, April 18, 2011
hi mom, i met danielle's boyfriends mom. she is very nice. he comes from such a good family. she chose a good boy. i wish you could meet him. he has such a cool dog too. when he gives his paw to shake he squeezes. it is so cool. I really like him. Funny thing.... he wants to start hunting with her too. His mother does skeet shooting. Our families fit really well together. weird. She asked if i hunt, i just laughed. I told her I stay warm. I really like them together, they are so cute. I just wish you were here for this part. I hate not being able to share this with anyone. I think thats why i wanted to talk to you today. I just want so bad to share these moment with someone. I love you and miss this mom
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, April 18, 2011
HI MOM... I TRIED CALLING YOU TODAY. GOOD THING THE PHONE WAS DISCONNECTED. I FELT STUPID. I KNOW BETTER. I JUST HAD A FEW FREE MINUTES AND YOU POPPED INTO MY HEAD. I JUST PICKED UP THE PHONE AND CALLED WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT IT. IT WAS WEIRD. I WAS NOT MYSELF TODAY. I AM GLAD TO BE HOME. I AM HAPPY HERE. I DON'T LIKE BEING AWAY FROM HOME. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I REALLY FEEL LOST WITHOUT YOUR GUIDANCE AND SMILE. IT FEELS SO EMPTY AND SAD HERE. NOTHING MAKES SENSE ANYMORE.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, April 17, 2011
hi mom....... not feeling well today. under the weather. I guess i am just in one of those moods to feel sorry for myself. I don't want to be around anyone. I tried getting out of it by going out with Garrett and Danielle. It was nice being with them but I just felt miles away from them. I am in a lull today. last night I couldn't stop crying. I know it sounds crazy but it is like when we loose someone real close sadness. stupid huh. I know that used to really irritate you when dad and i talked like that. cant help it. I need to know your here with me. I guess i still need you . I love you. I know i am not the best daughter and i screwed up a lot but i always cared about you and always did everything for you. i loved you. I never understood why you would not tell me that you loved me. that hurt. but i guess it doesn't matter. atleast we were friends.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, April 16, 2011
HI mom.... I think I am missing you tonight. I guess I just feel like lost tonight without you. I want so bad to share with you all that is going on but can't it kind of sucks. Sometimes it would be nice if their was a email address to heaven ha ha. you would think with all the technology today they could do that. ha ha. I would blow up your email huh. There is just so much i want to say right now. I just feel lost without you to talk to anymore. I don't like it. But I am strong enough that I just walk on silently and put on that fake face that no one gets to see behind. I really miss you a lot mom..
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, April 16, 2011
hi mom... cold and raining outside. good day to just stay inside under a quilt sipping tea. I know you can taste that tea huh. you loved your tea. Well I got my quilt but I am not drinking tea. ha ha candy instead. Yea I still have that same horrible eating habits. some things never change. ha ha... Today was girls day. Cindy and I took the girls out for lunch, manicures and pedicures then ice cream and a chic flic. It was really nice. I think Danielle is booking the next date. she loves to be pampered. I love doing it. Friday we went on a double date with her boyfriend. I think daddy was having a nervous breakdown. His eyes were on her more than the movie. ha ha. nice weekend. I wish monday was farther away. Garrett has been pretty good since are talk. I am glad. I hope we reached him. well gotta hit the books. love ya mom. always
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, April 14, 2011
HI MOM.... pretty good day today. difficult night tonight but I stayed strong and I am glad I did. It was not easy. It made me reflect back on things of my growing years with Jim. I love you mom. I am working real hard at school right now. It is almost done. I don't know what I will do. Things are not going as planned. Anyway, i miss you everyday more and more and love you. I wish we had more time together to share and time for you to enjoy the kids. But God had different plans. Perhaps, we all needed to appreciate you and we weren't. I don't know and there is really no point in dwelling on it. All I know is life is changing now that your gone and not for the better. It seems so much happier when you were here. I hate that your not now.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
HI MOM just thinking about you today. I really miss you. I know it is suppose to get easier but I don't know when. There are so many times that I am just so used to turning to you to talk to and now I cant. I am glad that Jeannie is good about letting me talk to her. I like talking to her we do bond well I know she doesn't have to but she does. I am glad. I think I would be lost with out any ears to listen to me. I don't get to see her anymore lately my life has been crazy. but thats okay. I guess it keeps my mind focused. I really wish you could still be here with us. I love you mom.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, April 11, 2011
hi mom.... danielle did great tonight. She looked so beautiful. I was so proud of her. we walked home together, man does that girl walk fast. lol she is so much fun. I just love her. her boyfriend is very nice. You would like him. Dad does, said he is very nice, he is very polite. She told me she likes hanging out with me that it is special. I felt good, it reminded me of us. We talk all the time just like you and I did. I had a great day today. I am starting to feel a lot better. I talked to Diane today, she filled me in about Anne. Anne is in the hospital have days. she gave me her email. I feel bad for her. Her spine is inflamed. I am going to keep in touch with her. It is funny someone special to me from my past told me to get intouch with my family, I see why now. It feels good. Kristen and I are close too. Tell sharon it only took till are 40' s to stop fighting. ha ha remember when we were kids. she use to separate us. lol. well night mom love you so much.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, April 11, 2011
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MOM..... MISS YOU. LOVE YOU ALWAYS DANIELLE IS SINGING TONIGHT IN FRONT OF 4,000 PEOPLE. SHE IS NERVOUS. WISH YOU WERE THERE TO SIT WITH. I HATE SITTING ALONE AT THESE THINGS. IT USED TO BE YOU AND ME. NOW IT IS JUST ME. OH WELL MAKING THE BEST OF IT HUH. LOVE YOU ALWAYS.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, April 10, 2011
hi mom.... I hate sundays. they suck. it us just the end of the week a family day without you in it. tomorrow is your anniversary. i cannot do anything to make it special for you like i use to. remember i would bring you flowers and dinner for you and dad. i miss that. set the table all up for you both with candles. I loved doing that for you both. dad was going to do something with diane but now he isn't. Today everyone seems to be in a funk. I think we are all missing you today. I made a gift for MAC. she loves it. she told me that everything I make turns out so nice. I found that I started to make one for you out of habit. Stupid huh. I guess I am just use to doing things for you to make you happy. well I hope it is real busy tomorrow at work so I can keep my mind real busy. you will be on my mind. I love you.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, April 9, 2011
HI Mom..... i am doing better today. went out with tim, ray, amanda and danielle. we had a nice day together. although i am not much into shooting it was nice to spend the day with them. then we went to lunch. Tomorrow we are going to take dad to hit golf balls to get him out. i am worried about him. his heart is so broken since you left us. i know we all miss you very much. There are things that are changing in the family but all and all I see that you were the one that held us together. That was what was special about you. Not something I can do. Sorry. Just know that I did my best and i love you every day.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Friday, April 8, 2011
hi mom... bitter sweet day today. I got some good news yet i feel sad. dad is hurting bad mom. i know i cannot help him. i am trying but i just cant. i talked to him again tonight. i am worried about him. he said he wanted to talk to jeannie (my friend) but he doesn't want to bother her. I understand that feeling. It is hard when you feel like that. I am going to do everything i can but i am just the daughter and i think because i have not experienced the same he doesn't think i know his pain. i don't. i know my pain. it hurts bad. Danielle has a boyfriend now. Dad likes him a lot. he is very nice. I am being very strict. I hope not too much. I just love her so much i don't want her hurt. Anyway, I wish I could give dad the one thing he wants that he cant get from you. But I cant. I told him he has to get past the pain. He cant. I love you and yes this week is hell. Scott is thinking of moving to Arizona after he gets married. I will miss him so much. Oh well I guess that is part of life. I did not expect him to stay after you past away. I miss you so much.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, April 7, 2011
HI mom. i miss you today. i have been thinking about you. i wish you didn't die but I know it was something that had to happen for your sake. It just sucks not having you around sometimes. You use to give me so much support and guidance. I miss not having that. I miss your humor, smile and jokes. you used to really light up a room when you where in it. Now the rooms seem dull. Don't worry, I am doing my best for all. Love you always
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
hi mom today is danielle's birthday. you know me. I love to make those days very special for the kids. we are going to dinner. she chose tully's to distract her daddy she is bringing a boy and she is nervous. He seems very nice. I am of course worried because she is my baby girl. but she is growing up. We have a lot of restrictions with this boy and i told him. He said he understands his mom has them too. I was glad to here that. I can't believe she is fifteen mom. where did the years go. she is such a beautiful young lady. I know she misses sharing these things with you, so do I. Well stay near her today so she knows how special she is.
C
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Monday, April 4, 2011
HI MOM... I HAVE BEEN IN A BIT OF A FUNK THE PAST FEW DAYS. I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE AROUND ANYONE LATELY. DANIELLE WANTS TO START DATING. SHE HAS A BOY THAT LIKES HER A LOT. I AM NERVOUS ABOUT THAT. WELL I AM GONNA GO. LOVE YA
C
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Sunday, April 3, 2011
hi mom ... jill came over with her new great granddaughter. she is so cute. it was a lazy day today. i did not do much. i was relaxing i don't feel good today. i have to get over it I have work tomorrow and some important stuff tomorrow. I was not up for visitors but I mustard up the visit. well I am gonna go. i need to rest up. I love you.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Hi Mom,
dad went to see you today at the cemetary. made me start to think about you. you know I don't believe in going to those places. I would rather have my visit time with you this way. Same thing i guess. Everyone was impressed with my cakes I made for Steph's party. Danielles birthday is Wednesday. Then Carmie"s on Thursday. Danielle is so excited she made her grandmas birthday present. It looks so cool too. After that is your anniversary and dad's birthday. Busy month huh. Three more classes and school is over. I still haven't decided what to do about the Master's program. It is one more year. I have time to think about it. I know the kids really just need their mom right now so I am thinking I just need to be mom. I miss just being mom and no computer. I also want to talk to them. I wish I could talk with you too. You use to be my voice of reason. Oh well huh. Dad was funny last night. He was pouting because I wouldn't give him cupcakes. Danielle couldn't take it she said he is too cute. I told her when your a mom pouting doesn't work. she said she just loves grandpa so much she wanted to give him the whole plate. I think he has her wrapped around his little finger. ha ha. they are buddies. I am so glad he is here with me. I would have loved it if you could have too. We are all doing well. Kyle is working again and loves it. Garrett is finding himself. He is seventeen and as they say good at it. ha ha. Danielle hard to believe she is fifteen on Wednesday. our little sweetheart. love you mom
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, March 31, 2011
HI MOM THIS WAS NOT A DAY I CARE TO REMEMBER. IT WAS REAL BAD. BUT FAITH DID PREVAIL THANK GOD. I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE I CAN HANDLE. I AM AT MY LEVEL. THANK GOD I HAVE TIM. HE IS THE SWEETEST GUY ON EARTH. HE CONTINUES TO BE THERE FOR THE FAMILY LIKE HE WAS FOR YOU. SAY HI TO AUNT SHARON I HAVE BEEN THINKING OF HER. I AM REACHING OUT TO MY FAMILY AGAIN. SHE WOULD BE HAPPY. WELL I MISS YOU GUYS. LOVE YOU ALL.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
HI MOM.... I AM HAVING A REAL TOUGH DAY TODAY. I WISH I HAD YOU TO TALK TO. I COULD REALLY USE A FRIEND LIKE YOU TO TALK TO. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I GUESS IT IS JUST ONE OF THOSE DAY AND I AM JUST IN A FUNK. I HATE THIS. I JUST HAVE TO PUT ON A FACE FOR EVERYONE. I HURT INSIDE TODAY. LOVE YOU
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, March 28, 2011
Hi mom. I found an old old photo album of yours and dads for when dad was little up to when you both were married. I decided since it is falling apart it would be cool to make a walk through life book. So it am starting it with you and dad and finishing with tim and I and our kids. It is done in scrapbook form. It looks cool. Dad didn't want the picture so I thought why not.something fun to do in my spare time.I sure do miss you being with us but it is getting more familiar now that dad is he with me.I always wish I still had you. I still cry when I talk or think about how much I do miss and love you. But I am doing good now. The hurt is still there but I put it away. School is almost done, many want me to get my masters. Not sure if I will. Anyway..... I just love you mom very much.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, March 27, 2011
HI I AM MISSING YOU TONIGHT. I JUST WANTED TO TALK TONIGHT. GOT STUFF TO GET OFF MY CHEST THATS ALL. YOU UNDERSTAND MY TWISTED MIND. HA HA. I KNOW STOP IT AND BE STRONG FOR THE FAMILY. I AM FOR THE MOST PART. i JUWST MISS THE BONDING,
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, March 27, 2011
JUST ME SAYING HI.. DANIELLE HAS BEEN TALKING ABOUT YOU. SHE HAS STARTED A SECOND PART TIME THING TO KEEP BUSY. I AM DOING OK HOLD THINGS TOGETHER. NEXT WEEK WILL BE A BIG WEEK FOR ALL OF US. STAY NEAR. I AM DOING WHAT I CAN FOR DAD. I WORRY ABOUT HIM. WE ALL LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU EVERYDAY. LARA'S MOM ISN'T DOING WELL HER CANCER IS BACK. I FEEL BAD FOR HER. I KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE. SEEMS LIKE A LOT OF CANCER GOING AROUND LATELY. MORE AND MORE PEOPLE I KNOW. LOVE YA ALWAYS MOM
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Friday, March 25, 2011
MOM, TODAY WAS JUST NOT A GOOD DAY. ONE OF THOSE DAYS WHEN YOU WOULD TELL ME TO GO BACK HOME AND FORGET IT STARTED. I REALLY DON'T LIKE IT AT WORK ANYMORE. IT IS GETTING WORSE AND WORSE. I KNOW I HAVE TO HANG IN THERE BUT I JUST DON'T WANT TO. IT WAS ALSO A PAINFUL DAY FOR ME, SO I THINK THAT JUST MAKES IT LESS TOLERABLE. BUT I AM DOING MY BEST BECAUSE I KNOW I HAVE TO. IT IS GETTING NEAR THAT DIFFICULT TIME OF YEAR FOR DAD AGAIN. I SWEAR FEBRUARY AND APRIL USE TO BE A BLESSING. I AM GOING TO TRY TO FOCUS HIM ON DANIELLE'S BIRTHDAY. I HOPE IT WORKS. STAY NEAR HIM. HE IS REALLY HURTING. I KNOW IT NEVER HEALS. YOU TWO HAVE A LOVE THAT COMES ONCE. THAT LEAVES A LOSS THAT IS FOREVER. I KNOW MY HURT, HIS IS HUGE IN COMPARISON. I REALLY WORRY FOR HIM. HE MEANS SO MUCH TO ME. I JUST LOVE DAD AND YOU SO MUCH. WISH I COULD FIX IT BUT IT IS THE ONE THING I CANNOT. LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ALWAYS. DANIELLE WAS TALKING ABOUT HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU WERE AND SKINNY. WE LOOKED AT YOUR DATING PICTURE OF YOU AND DAD. SHE WONDERED WHY YOU WERE CALLED "TINY" SHE WEARS YOUR LOCKET DAD GAVE YOU IN THE ARMY EVERYDAY.
C
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Tuesday, March 22, 2011
HI MOM, IT WAS GOOD TO BE BACK TO WORK TODAY. IT TOOK A LOT OUT OF ME BUT I DON'T LIKE TO BE HOME SITTING AROUND. DANIELLE IS HAVING A HARD TIME I TOLD HER I WILL BE BY HER SIDE. SHE IS WORKING NOW. SHE IS SUCH A BIG GIRL NOW. IJUST LOVE HER. GRANDPA TOOK HER OUT TODAY TO SPEND A LITTLE ONE ON ONE WITH HER SHE FELT PRETTY SPECIAL. LOVE YOU
C
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Monday, March 21, 2011
HI MOM, FEELING LITTLE BETTER TODAY. THEY FIXED THE HEADACHES NOW I JUST HAVE TO DEAL WITH A BAD BACK FOR 6 WEEKS. THATS OK. DAD IS LIKE A MOTHER HEN. LOL... PAIN IN THE BUTT. HA HA. i AM GLAD TO BE GOING BACK TO WORK. TALKED TO SCOTT TODAY. EVERYONE SEEMS TO BE DOING OK. WE STILL MISS YOU. THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE, YOU ARE A BIG PART OF US. I LOVE YOU.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, March 20, 2011
I FOUND THE PICTURE DAD GAVE YOU WHEN HE WENT IN THE SERVICE TELLING YOU HOW MUCH HE LOVED YOU TODAY. IT MADE ME SMILE. YOU BOTH HAD SUCH A STRONG LOVE FOR EACH OTHER. IT WAS SO SPECIAL. SOMETHING THAT COMES ONLY ONCE IN A LIFETIME. HE CHERISHES YOU. ANYWAY IT MADE ME SMILE INSIDE. I AM NOT FEELING WELL TODAY. I WILL BE OKAY. I LOVE YOU. YOUR ONE IN A MILLION.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, March 19, 2011
HI, DAD AND I TALKED ABOUT HOW MUCH HE IS MISSING YOU. HE WILL NEVER STOP MOM. THAT IS A VOID THAT NEVER ENDS FOR HIM. HE LOVED YOU JUST THAT MUCH. I AM GLAD I CAN BE HERE FOR HIM. TODAY WAS MY FIRST DAY OUT. I DIDN'T MAKE IT, DAD HAD TO TAKE ME HOME. I HOPE I CAN RETURN TO WORK MONDAY. TIM IS BEING A GOOD NURSE. FIRST NURSE EVER IN CAMOFLAGE. HA HA. BOYS AND DANIELLE HAVE BEEN GREAT TOO. I LOVE THEM ALL THEY ARE GREAT. WE ALL LOVE AND MISS YOU. WE ARE DOING GOOD THOUGH. LOVE YOU ALWAYS.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Friday, March 18, 2011
HI MOM, DAD SURVIVED HIS DAY DRIVING LITTLE WHITTIE. HA HA. I AM BACK RESTING, IT TIRED ME OUT YET. NOT QUITE BACK TO MYSELF. BUT I AM NOT ONE TO REST. TIM GETS MAD CUZ I WONT STAY DOWN. LOL. HAVE YOU EVER KNOWN ME TO DO THAT AFTER ANY SURGERY. NOPE HA HA. TOMORROW I HAVE TO GO BACK TO THE TAX GUY. I AM SO UNORGANIZED THIS YEAR. LOVE YA MOM.
C
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Friday, March 18, 2011
JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU DAD HAD NINE IN A ROW. ALMOST 300 HUNDRED. WOW HUH. I AM UP AND AROUND TODAY FEELING BETTER. CANT DRIVE YET. MAKING DAD DRIVE ME. HA HA. HE HATES THIS. OH WELL. I CANT SIT AROUND. GOT STUFF TO DO ALWAYS. YOU KNOW ME LITTLE WHITIE. HA HA. BET SHE IS LAUGHING WITH YOU. LOVE YA
C
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Thursday, March 17, 2011
HAPPY ST. PATTY DAY. I AM DOING OKAY. RECOVERING. WILL BE HOME TOMORROW TO RECOVERING. STILL PRETTY SORE. GLAD IT IS OVER. DAD WAS WITH YOU TODAY. HAD SOME VISITORS TONIGHT. THAT WAS NICE. TIM HAD ME WEAR GREEN TODAY. HA HA. LOVE YOU.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
HI, FEELING LONELY TODAY, PRETTY SCARED ABOUT TOMARROW. I AM STEPPING AWAY FROM THINGS. I DON'T WANT TO BE A PART ANYMORE. SICK OF IT. MAN I CANT EVEN BEGIN TO TELL YOU HOW SCARED I AM ABOUT TOMORROW. THE LAST WAS BAD ENOUGH. I LOVE YOU
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, March 14, 2011
hi mom, having one of those times when I wish i were not around here. Somedays suck. lol .... getting my house back finally. Thank God it has been a long time. Three years I think huh. I don't think I will know what it is like anymore. I bet it will be like an empty nest syndrome. ha ha. i told you i would never feel that. remember. God I miss you. I love you mom. Stay near me i will need you this week.
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, March 13, 2011
hi mom, i forgot, i meant to yell at you for not being here when i need you. ha ha. just kidding. i could use your help but I know it is time for me to knock it off huh. you know i am always tough on myself in the worse ways. now is no different. huh. worse on me than others lol. I think i needed more lessons from you. ha ha
C
CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, March 13, 2011
hi spent the day out and about doing stuff and keeping busy. This has been a busy weekend. The weekends are nuts lately. Got a lot on my mind. Wish I could just unload it and talk. So much going on. I miss talking to you. I could always say anything to you and you knew just what to say. I am ready though, you know what i mean. I got a 98% in my last class. nice huh. Almost done. bet you never thought i would get it done. ha ha, me either. lol .... well love ya
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, March 10, 2011
just letting you know whats up. kids are kids. some days better than others. dad is well. he likes it here. scott is working on stuff with lara wedding coming up. Diane and I talk a lot now. She fills me in on Marilyn, Anne and now Karen. Guess Anne and Karen are sick too. Same stuff. Weird. Darn Reynolds ha ha. Anyway, Guess your house is getting a painting. Everything will be white inside. Going to look sterile. ha ha. No carol finese. I will miss that.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
JUST WANT TO SAY HI. SAW A DOC TODAY. MAN WAS THAT PAINFUL. OUCH. LOL GLAD THAT IS OVER WITH. DANIELLE IS REALLY GETTING INTO THE TAXIDERMY NOW. SHE IS ENTERING A COMPETITION. SHE IS GOOD TOO. NOT FEELING WELL TONIGHT. THINK I WILL GO TO BED PRETTY EARLY. WELL I LOVE YA.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, March 6, 2011
JUST THOUGHT I WOULD WRITE YOU A NOTE. A FRIEND OF MINE IS PRETTY ILL. DOESN'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE. I AM TRYING TO HELP, DON'T KNOW IF I CAN. BUT I WILL DO WHAT I CAN. I FEEL BAD. I KNOW IF IT WERE ME I WOULD WANT TO FEEL THAT SOMEONE CARED ENOUGH TO TRY. I SEE IT AS A CRY FOR HELP. SO I FIGURE I SHALL PLACE THE DIRECTION OF THE HELP SO IT IS VISIBLE THEN GENTLY STEP ASIDE. THAT IS THE BEST I CAN OFFER. THE REST WOULD NOT BE MY PLACE. I GOT IT ALL LAID ON MY SHOULDERS TONIGHT. LUCKY HUH. LOL. ANYWAY THAT IS WHAT I AM GOING TO BE DOING. GOOD PRACTICE. WISH YOU COULD SEE ME NOW. LOL.... I REALLY MISS YOU SO MUCH NOW. THERE IS SO MUCH I WISH I COULD SHARE WITH YOU. I LOVE YOU
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, March 6, 2011
hi, sure is cold. don't think this snow will quit. Tim bought new golf clubs and we are joining a new country club this year. cant wait. No golf leagues, it didn't work out so good. I like just open playing. Tim is really hooked on it too. I am glad. Miss you a lot. love ya always,
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, March 5, 2011
hi mom, i miss you so much. i am doing okay, i found out something that is very disturbing, i am not sure yet what i will do with it but i am sure it will come to me. wish i had you to talk things over with. Danielle is doing so well in bowling. kids are doing great. Tim and I are doing great also. Love you.
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CJ? LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, March 3, 2011
5 MORE CLASSES LEFT! CAN'T BELIEVE IT. IT IS ALMOST OVER. I THINK I FINALLY NEED A BREAK. LOL. I KNOW WHAT I WANT AND I KNOW WHAT I WILL DO. I HAVE CHANGED MY MIND MANY TIMES BUT I HAVE SETTLED NOW. I THINK YOU WILL BE HAPPY WITH MY CHOICE. I WILL BE MAKING A DIFFERENCE WHICH IS ALL I EVER WANTED TO DO HERE HUH. I THINK I CAN NOW. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON HUH. LOVE YOU SO MUCH. WISH YOU WERE HERE FOR GRADUATION, WELL I DECIDED NOT TO GO TO THE CEREMONY. I DON'T WANT THAT I DON'T NEED IT.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, March 3, 2011
HI JUST THINKING ABOUT YOU. TOUGH DAY TODAY. I MISS YOU A LOT ON DAYS LIKE THIS. THESE ARE THE TIMES I WOULD LIKE TO TALK TO YOU. I MISS THOSE TIMES MOST OF ALL. THEY WERE SPECIAL TIMES WE SHARED. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. STAY NEAR, I NEED YOU.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
JUST THINKING ABOUT YOU. I WAS REMINISING ABOUT YOU WITH A PATIENT TODAY. SHE COMMENTED ON SOMETHING I HAD THAT I WEAR IN REMEMBERANCE OF YOU. GOT ME THINKING OF YOU. HAPPY THOUGHTS OF YOU. IT WAS NICE. FELT GOOD. I TOLD HER I MISS YOU. SHE SAID THAT IS NICE. I SAID YES IT IS THAT YOU WERE VERY SPECIAL TO ME. WE BOTH SMILED. FIRST TIME I FELT GOOD ABOUT IT. I HAVE A BETTER OUTLOOK ON EVERYTHING LATELY. I KNOW ABOUT TIME. LOL. I SAID GOODBYE TO MANY THINGS TODAY. FELT REAL GOOD. NO MORE BAGGAGE MOM. IT IS ALL GONE. MY LOAD IS FINALLY LIGHT. SO LIGHT. I LOVE YA AND MISS YOU. THINK OF YOU OFTEN.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Hi just wanted to tell you dad needs you bad right now. Stay near him and send him a sign. He feel alone. I love you.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, February 26, 2011
JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT DANIELLE BOWLED REAL WELL TODAY. SHE HAS HER LESSON ON MONDAY. HE WANTS TO SEE ME BOWL TOO. EVERYONE WANTS ME TO JOIN A LEAGUE. I THINK I MAY. MAYBE WE WILL SEE. THOUGHT I MAY ASK LYNN, GAIL, OR BERNIE, MARYLOU WE WILL SEE. I THINK IT WOULD BE FUN. DAD WENT TO THE MALL WITH ME TODAY. HA HA I DON'T THINK HE HAS EVER DONE THAT. HE LOOKED LOST. LOL. WE GOT SO MUCH SNOW YESTERDAY, I HAD TO SHOVEL MY WAY INTO THE DRIVEWAY. CRAZY. I CANT WAIT TILL GOLF SEASON. ANYWAY. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. FAMILY IS DOING GREAT.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, February 24, 2011
I AM SORRY FOR ALL THAT YOU HAD TO GO THROUGH. I AM LEARNING SO MUCH THAT YOU SUBJECTED TO THAT I WAS UNAWARE OF. I FEEL BAD. HAD I KNOWN I COULD HAVE HELPED YOU. WISH YOU COULD HAVE TALKED. WELL THAT IS OVER. I LOVE YOU. WE CLOSED ON THE HOUSE TODAY. IT IS DONE NOW. I AM RELIEVED. I MISS YOU ALWAYS. THINGS WILL BE OKAY.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
HI MOM, I AM REALLY MAD AT MY SELF AND OTHERS LATELY. I SEEM TO BE TAKING THINGS OUT ON EVERYONE AND PUSHING EVERYONE AWAY WHICH MAKES IT WORSE. LATELY I HAVE BEEN MAD AT MYSELF BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN DOING STUPID THINGS THAT I SHOULD KNOW BETTER. I DON'T KNOW WHY I DO IT. ANYWAY. I LOVE YOU. THIS WEEK WE CLOSE ON YOUR HOUSE. SORRY.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, February 21, 2011
HI, BETTER DAY TODAY. I STAYED FOCUSED AND KEPT MY MIND OFF OF THINGS. I JUST DO NOT UNDERSTAND SOMETIMES THE WHY OF STUFF, BUT I CANNOT FORCE THE REASONS. I GUESS THAT IS WHERE I GET STUCK. I HAVE TO LEARN FROM THE WHY'S AND IF I CAN'T I HAVE TROUBLE MOVING FORWARD. I WANT TO UNDERSTAND AND EDUCATE MYSELF. BUT LIFE DOES NOT ALWAYS ALLOW THAT DOES IT. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. DAD WASN'T FEELING WELL. HE SEEMS BETTER TODAY. I AM HAVING SUCH A HARD TIME RIGHT NOW. I AM SO ANGRY INSIDE. I AM PUSHING EVERYTHING AWAY. PROTECTION METHOD, REMEMBER I ALWAYS DO THAT. I HATE THAT. WELL ANYWAY I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, February 20, 2011
HI MOM. ROUGH DAY TODAY. I WAS PRETTY BUMMED OUT TODAY. FEELING PRETTY LOW. I WAS MISSING YOU A LOT. I GUESS I JUST WANTED TO TALK AND THERE WASN'T ANYONE TO TALK TO. MAC SET ME STRAIGHT. IT IS ALMOST AS IF YOU SEND HER TO ME. OUT OF THE BLUE SHE CALLS TO CHECK ON ME. I WAS TRYING TO REACH OUT TO JEANNIE. I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. OH WELL. THINGS ARE WEIRD RIGHT NOW. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. I HAVE THINGS I JUST HAVE TO DO RIGHT NOW. LIKE IT OR NOT. I HAVE TO DO IT. I REALLY MISS YOU A LOT. THESE ARE HARD MONTHS FOR ME. I KNOW YOUR HAPPY WITH WHAT I HAVE DONE. IT WAS NOT EASY AND THE REST WILL BE THE HARDEST PART. I AM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. I WISH I HAD SUPPORT FROM YOU. I LOVE YOU MOM. I MISS YOU SO FREAKING MUCH. THIS IS HARD TO OVERCOME.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, February 19, 2011
YOU ALWAYS DID THINGS FOR OTHERS EVEN WHEN YOU DIDN'T FEEL UP TO IT. YOU PUT YOUR FEELINGS AND NEEDS SECOND. YOU TAUGHT ME TO DO THAT. TODAY I DID THAT FOR DANIELLE. SHE NEEDED ME, I DIDN'T FEEL UP TO IT BUT I PUSHED MYSELF HARD FOR HER. WE STAYED TOGETHER ALL DAY BOWLING, GYM, SHOPPING AND DINNER. SHE THANKED ME, NOW I AM TRASHED HA HA BUT SHE WILL NEVER KNOW. JUST LIKE YOU WOULD NEVER TELL. YOU TAUGHT ME SO MUCH ABOUT HOW TO TREAT OTHERS AND HOW TO MAKE THEM NUMBER ONE AND SPECIAL. THANKS. I FEEL SO MUCH OF YOU IN ME NOW. I CAN RECOGNIZE IT NOW. MAYBE BECAUSE I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I DO FEEL ALONE WITHOUT YOU TO TALK TO. I DON'T LIKE NOT HAVING A SOUNDING BOARD FOR ADVISE ANYMORE. YOU KNOW HOW I MESS UP HA HA. WELL I AM TRYING REAL HARD BUT MY LOAD NEVER SEEMS TO GET LIGHTER. I DON'T KNOW WHY. MAYBE IT IS THE PERSPECTIVE OF THE BEHOLDER. MAYBE I NEED TO FLIP THE COIN OVER. YOU ALWAYS HELPED WITH THAT. YOU WERE SO GOOD . I LOVE YOU ALWAYS. MISS YOU TOO. WISH YOU WERE HERE TO TALK WITH.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, February 17, 2011
DAD TOLD ME LAST NIGHT THAT MARGE DID. WE DIDN'T FIND OUT TILL NOW. HE FELT BAD. I KNOW SHE WAS ILL. YOU ALMOST HAVE THE WHOLE 600 CLUB WITH YOU. HA HA. GOT BIG PROBLEMS WITH YOUR HOUSE. NOT GOOD. NOT SURE WHAT WILL HAPPEN. I WILL DO WHAT I CAN. I SURE YOU GLAD YOU DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS ONE. HA HA. I DO MISS YOU I ALWAYS DO AND I LOVE YOU TOO. IT SEEMS LIKE LIFE GIVES ME A LOT TO DEAL WITH. I GUESS I AM GOOD AT IT. HA HA. I AM READY TO GIVE IT UP THOUGH. I HAVE HAD ENOUGH NOW. I THINK I AM DONE. I KNOW YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. DAD WILL BE DOING OKAY DOC IS GOING TO CHANGE SOME THINGS HOPE IT WORKS. MAC IS COMING FOR A VISIT, THAT WILL BE FUN. THE BOYS ARE GETTING BIG. THEY ARE VERY ACTIVE IN SPORTS NOW. WE ARE VERY CLOSE. MARYLOU WAS OVER LAST WEEK. SHE LOOKS GREAT. LOVE YOU MOM.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
HI, MORE MEETINGS TODAY AT WORK. UGH.... ITS OKAY IT IS WHAT IT IS. I UNDERSTAND SOME THINGS BETTER NOW. I WAS THINKING ABOUT YOU AND SOME OF THE THINGS YOU WENT THROUGH AND HOW YOU MUST OF FELT INSIDE. HOW YOU KEPT IT UP INSIDE AND OUTSIDE. MADE ME UNDERSTAND WHAT I CANT. MAYBE WHAT I WOULDN'T LET ME UNDERSTAND. ANYWAY I SEE IT NOW. NOW I NEED TO GET THERE TOO. I THINK I UNDERSTAND A LOT MORE NOW TOO. BUT IT DOESN'T MAKE IT EASY. I JUST HAVE TO DO THIS NOW. I CANNOT FIX THE ERRORS OF MY WAYS THAT I HAVE MADE ONLY APOLOGIZE TO THOSE I HAVE HURT AND MOVE ON AND NOT DO IT AGAIN AND MOVE IN THE DIRECTION THAT IS MORE PROACTIVE TO MY CONDITION. STAY NEAR...... ALWAYS I LOVE YOU.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, February 14, 2011
GOOD DAY TODAY. MANY MEETINGS AT WORK, BUT IT WAS GOOD. TONIGHT WAS NICE TOO. I HAD TIM BY MY SIDE. THE BEST MAN ALIVE.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, February 13, 2011
I MISS NOT WRITING TO YOU. CAN'T NOT WRITE TO YOU. I LOVE YOU. MARYLOU AND I SHAVED THE DOGS TODAY. THEY LOOK SO CUTE. THEY LOOK SO LITTLE. LOOK LIKE THOSE AUSTRALIAN SHEEP DOGS. IT WAS TOO MUCH FOR DAD. HAD TO DO IT. DANIELLE LIKED IT TOO. SAID YOU WOULD HAVE ALSO. MARYLOU SAID YOU NEVER LET HER. DAD GOT WORRIED. I SAID IT IS OKAY. TIM IS GETTING REAL INTO GOLF NOW. HE AND DAD WENT TO THE GOLF SHOW. HE IS GOING TO TAKE LESSONS. I THINK I NEED TO GIVE IT UP AND TAKE UP PUTT PUTT. HA HA. THERE IS ALWAYS UNCLE DESI HUH. SCHOOL IS GOING TO BE OVER THIS YEAR. I WILL HAVE SO MUCH TIME ON MY HANDS. I WON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I CAN START YOUR QUILTS AGAIN. I HAVE TEN QUILTS WAITING FOR ME TO FINISH. I SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET THEM ALL DONE BY CHRISTMAS. I THINK I AM GOING TO TAKE UP BOWLING TOO. PLUS I HAVE TO START GOING TO THE GYM EVERYDAY AGAIN. I HAD A LONG TOUGH TALK WITH SCOTT RECENTLY ABOUT A LOT OF STUFF. HE HAS A LOT GOING ON RIGHT NOW, AND I HAD A LOT TO SAY. I THINK HE WILL BE OK. SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I AM THE BIG SISTER AND THE PARENT AND DADS CAREGIVER. DADS GOT ALOT GOING ON NOW TOO. I LOVE YOU MOM. I AM GLAD I AM ABLE TO KEEP MY PROMISE TO YOU. STAY NEAR US MOM. SOMETIMES SOME OF YOUR FAMILY MAY NEED YOU. I AM DOING GREAT NOW. I FEEL I AM THROUGH THE STORM FINALLY. DAD IS ENTERING IT NOW. I AM GLAD HE IS WITH ME FOR THIS STORM. HE REALIZES THAT THIS IS GOING TO BE HIS FIRST YEAR WITHOUT YOU. LAST YEAR WAS JUST SHOCK. HE IS HURTING BIG TIME NOW.
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CJ/ LJ posted a condolence
Friday, February 11, 2011
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM YOUR AWESOME. I LOVE YOU. TODAT WE CELEBRATE YOU! :-)
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
I KNOW I AM NOT SUPPOSE TO BE HERE WRITING YOU. I WAS TOLD NOT TO DO THIS BUT I TRIED. THIS IS YOUR BIRTHDAY WEEK. THINGS ARE GOING OKAY. DAD IS DOING HIS THING AGAIN. I KNOW WHAT I SHOULD BE DOING BUT I JUST CANT. HE WANTED ME TO GO GOLFING WITH HIM AND BOBBY LAST WEEKEND BUT I JUST DIDN'T FEEL UP TO IT. BOBBY WAS BUGGING ME TERRIBLE TO GO. MAYBE NEXT WEEK. WE WILL SEE. I AM JOINING A DIFFERENT GOLF COURSE THIS SUMMER. DON'T LIKE RIVERTON. DANIELLE HAS A DANCE THIS WEEKEND. SHE LOOKS AWESOME OF COURSE. STEPH IS GONNA GO TO. I HAVE TO TAKE HER TO GET A DRESS. DAD KEEPS MOVING HIS ROOM AROUND. HE IS FUNNY. HAS PICTURES FOR ME TO HANG IN HIS BEDROOM AND GOLF PICTURES AND STEELER'S PICTURES TOO. HE MAKES ME LAUGH. NIGHT MOM LOVE YOU.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, February 7, 2011
HI MOM. WENT TO DOC TODAY. I THOUGHT I WOULD KNOW SOMETHING BUT I DON'T. I HAVE ANOTHER TEST THURSDAY THEN FIVE MORE. THEY WANT ME TO SAY GOODBYE. FUNNY I THINK THEY MAYBE RIGHT. I LIKE TALKING TO YOU BUT MAYBE IT IS TIME. I DON'T KNOW WHAT GOOD THIS IS ANYWAY. YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU AND WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME. WE WILL SEE. YOUR FOREVER IN MY HEART. TOUGH TIMES RIGHT NOW, BUT THERE WILL ALWAYS BE TIMES THAT I WILL WISH FOR YOU. I JUST GOTTA KNOW IT ISN'T GONNA HAPPEN AND THAT IS IT. CANT TALK ANYMORE AND THAT IS THE REALITY OF LIFE NOW. PERIOD. I GUESS THAT IS THE ULTIMATE TOUGH LOVE.. HA HA. YOU WERE TRULY ONE OF THE BEST FRIENDS AND MOTHER ANYONE COULD HAVE. LOVE ALWAYS.
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CJ LJJ posted a condolence
Sunday, February 6, 2011
MOM IT SEEMS MY HANDS ARE TIED. I AM LIMITED TO WHAT I CAN DO NOW. I DONT LIKE IT. WISH I COULD GET YOUR HELP. YOU WOULD KNOW WHAT TO DO. STORY KEEPS REPEATING. STAY NEAR ME. I WILL NEED YOUR STRENGTH.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, February 5, 2011
HI AGAIN, JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU DANIELLE BOWL REAL GOOD TODAY. WISH YOU COULD HAVE BEEN THERE. DANIELLE IS REALLY CHANGING A LOT. I LOVE HER. SHE IS WORRIED ABOUT ME. I ALMOST PASSED OUT TODAY. SHE WAS SCARED. WISH I COULD TALK TO YOU. I NEED TO TALK BAD. IT ALWAYS HELPS ME. I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE MONDAY. I WISH YOU COULD BE WITH ME. I GUESS IN SPIRIT YOU WILL. I AM WORRIED ABOUT JEANNIE. I WISH SHE WOULD LET ME HELP HER. I FEEL SO BAD FOR HER MOM. SHE IS SO SWEET, TELL KEITH AND BETTY TO SEND HER A SIGN TO GIVE HER SOME PEACE. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Friday, February 4, 2011
NOT FEELING WELL TODAY. STAYED HOME TODAY. RESTING. I WANT MONDAY OVER. I MISS YOU MORE EACH DAY. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I FEEL SO FORTUNATE THAT I HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO HAVE DAD LIVING WITH ME. I LIKE IT. IT WOULD HAVE BEEN FUN WITH YOU HERE TOO.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, February 3, 2011
JUST SAYING HI. HAD TO LEAVE WORK TODAY. I COULDN'T TAKE THE PAIN ANYMORE. I COULDN'T FUNCTION TODAY. GOING TO TRY REAL HARD TO DO HOMEWORK. I DON'T KNOW. GETTING TOUGH. I LOVE YOU MOM. WISH YOU COULD BE HERE TO HELP ME. YOU KNEW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF ME. I AM WORRIED ABOUT MONDAY BE WITH ME IN SPIRIT. I WILL NEED SOMEONE.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
HI, PAIN IN THE ASS AGAIN. FUNNY I AM THE ONE WITH THE PAIN NOW. HA HA. BETTER DAY FOR ME TODAY. HAD TROUBLE WALKING AND STANDING TODAY BUT I FEEL IN GOOD SPIRITS TODAY. I WAS TALKING TO A FRIEND OF MINE. SHE WAS FEELING SORRY FOR ME SAID I HAVE BEEN THROUGH TOO MUCH. I SAID THE LORD GIVE ME WHAT I NEED. I SAID THIS MAY NOT BE FOR ME BUT FOR THE BITTER HEARTS THAT SURROUND ME TO SOFTEN THEIR HEARTS. SHE WAS SURPRISED AT MY PEACE. I ONLY WORRY IS WHAT WILL BE. I LOVE YOU MOM. I MET SOME STRUGGLES TODAY. I TALKED WITH JEANNIE ABOUT THEM. SHE HELPED. SHE BUSTED MY CHOPS TOO. I LIKE THAT. GUESS WHAT. I AM LIKE YOU. I REMEMBER THE DAYS WHEN EVERYONE CAME TO GET THEIR HAIR DONE BY YOU. WELL I DID MAC. HAIR, LORE'S, DUSTINS AND OF COURSE MY FAMILIES. I FEEL LIKE YOU. HA HA. TONIGHT WAS QUIET HERE. JUST TIM DANIELLE AND I FOR DINNER. DAD SHOWED UP FOR HIS PIE. HIM AND HIS PIE. GOT TO HAVE HIS SWEETS. LOL. I AM GOING TO HAVE A SPECIAL DINNER FOR YOU ON YOUR BIRTHDAY AND BUY YOUR FAVORITE FLOWERS. JUST TO RECOGNIZE YOU. I FEEL BAD YOUR NOT HERE. I WILL MAKE YOUR GROSS BEANS. HA HA. LOVE YOU SO MUCH MOM I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
HI THINKING ABOUT YOU THIS IS YOUR BIRTHDAY MONTH. HARD TO BELIEVE YOU WOULD BE 71 THIS MONTH. I WISH I COULD DO SOMETHING TO CELEBRATE IT. I MISS THAT. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I HOPE MONDAY GIVES ME SOME RESOLUTION AND PLAN FOR THE FUTURE. I WOULD LIKE CLOSURE. A PLAN, KNOWLEDGE SOMETHING. THAT WAY I CAN MEET WITH THE FAMILY. I FEEL BAD TIMMY CANT BE THERE BUT IT ISN'T MEANT TO BE. I GUESS I HAVE TO WALK THIS ALONE. I NEED TO BE STRONG AGAIN. I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH. THESE ARE THE DAYS I WOULD LIKE TO TALK ABOUT SO MUCH. NOW I CANT. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, January 31, 2011
Somedays I FEEL AS THOUGH MY RAINBOW HAS LEFT ME ASTRAY. TONIGHT I AM LOST AND VERY FRUSTRATED AND ANGRY. IDONT KNOW WHERE TO TURN OR WHAT EMOTION TO LET LOOSE. I FEEL BETRAYED AND DISAPPOINTED. I JUST WANT TO LET LOOSE AND SCREAM OUTLOUD THEN CRY. MOM I JUST DONT GET WHY I KEEP SCREWING EVERYTHING. UP ALL THE TIME. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, January 30, 2011
HEY MOVED DAD TOTALLY TODAY. HE LIVED HERE NOW. I AM HAPPY, HE IS TOO. I LIKE IT. I DON'T LIKE THIS DISEASE I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH. IT IS PLAYING HAVOC WITH ME. THEY SAY I HAVE TO NAP BEFORE GOING OUT TO HAVE STRENGTH TO GO OUT. I HAVE TO REST MY EYES TO ELIMINATE THE DOUBLE VISION. GOOFY. I AM STUBBORN AND DON'T LIKE TO SLOW DOWN. GUESS I CAN'T BE LITTLE WHITIE ANYMORE HA HA. SHE HAS ME BEAT. TELL HER THAT. I LOVE AND MISS YOU. SOADY AND RANGELY LOVE YOUR DOGS. THEY PLAY NICE TOGETHER.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, January 27, 2011
TALKED WITH DAD TONIGHT. I GET IT NOW. DAD OPENED UP TO ME. HE SAID SOMETHING THAT SHOOK ME UP. HE REALLY OPENED MY EYES AND MAKES ME SEE. I GET WHAT HE FEELS MOM. HE SEES A TIMELINE. HE IS THE ONLY FAMILY LEFT. HIS WHOLE FAMILY IS GONE AND ONLY DIANE IS LEFT ON YOUR SIDE. HE KNOWS HE HAS HIS KIDS AND GRANDKIDS BUT HE SAID IT DIFFERENT. GUESS NEVER THOUGHT OF IT. I SEE WHERE IT WOULD FREAK ME OUT TOO I GUESS. I WILL HELP SUPPORT HIM. GOT A LOT OF PAIN TONIGHT AGAIN. GONNA SLEEP EARLY I THINK IF I CAN. LITTLE WEIRD STUFF GOING ON. DANIELLE IS STARTING THE TEEN STUFF. I AM BEING TOUGH ON HER. FINALLY GOT GARRETT GOING TO THE DOCTOR. TOOK TIME BUT I HAVE BEEN WORKING WITH HIM AND NOW HE SEES IT. KYLE WELL NO COLLEGE MOM. NO WORK. BROKE THE TRUCK. HE IS A GOOD GUY BUT TIM IS FED UP. SAID DECEMBER IS THE CUT OFF. TOLD HIM HE CANT BLOW ANYMORE SMOKE AT US. NO MORE LIES. I AM STANDING WITH TIM. HE IS MY GUY AND I LOVE HIM. KYLE IS ALMOST 21. HE CANT KEEP THIS UP ANYMORE.
GARRETT HAS GOOD GRADES AND DOING WELL IN SCHOOL.
DAD TOLD DANIELLE HE LOVES IT HERE.
LOVE YOU MOM. I MISS YOU. MOVING THE REST OF THE HOUSE THIS WEEKEND. DANIELLE IS DADS HOUSE CLEANER. SHE LIKES TO CLEAN FOR HIM. LOL ... REMEMBER HOW SHE CLEANS HER ROOM. HIS HOUSE LOOKS GREAT ALL THE TIME.
YOU PARTYING UP THERE WITH ALL THE BOWLING GANG YOU HAVE WITH YOU NOW. TELL PAT TO PAINT ME A BEAUTIFUL SUNSET... HA HA
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, January 27, 2011
HI MOM. .... DON'T FEEL UP TO TALKING BUT JUST WANT TO SEND A NOTE THAT I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
HI MOM MORE BAD NEWS TODAY. GOT MY RESULTS. UGH. I'M SCARED NOW. BIG TIME. OUTLOOK IS GRIM. DAMN IT. I TALKED WITH AUNT DIANNE. WEIRD BUT ANNE WAS DIAGNOSED THE SAME DAY WITH THE SAME THING. NOT GOING TO TALK WITH DAD OR SCOTT ABOUT IT. TOLD TIM. HE IS UPSET. TRYING PHYSICAL THERAPY FOR ONE MORE WEEK. NOT WORKING. LOVE YOU. ... HAD SOME TROUBLES WITH DANIELLE TODAY. FUNNY SHE SPENT SOME TIME WITH DAD BUYING PILLOWS. LOL.... I THINK THEY ARE BECOMING BUDDIES. SHE CALLED AND CHANGED HER ATTITUDE AND SAID THAT DAD REALLY LIKES HIS PLACE. HE LOAN IT OUT TO HER WHEN HE GOES OUT. SHE SAYS IT IS RELAXING HERE. I THINK SHE THINKS IT IS A TEEN HANG OUT AND THEY ARE WORKING TOGETHER. LOL. THEY ARE FUNNY. I REALLY LOVE THEM. DAD IS JUST GREAT MOM. IS SEE WHAT YOU LOVED ABOUT HIM. WE ARE VERY CLOSE NOW. THANK YOU FOR THAT. I AM SO PROTECTIVE OF HIM. MY FRIEND SUE MET HIM. SHE SAID HE IS SO FUNNY. SHE LIKES HIM TOO. SHE LOOKS FORWARD TO SEEING HIM ON SATURDAYS NOW. HE MAKES HER LAUGH. SHE SAID I GET MY SMART ASS FROM HIM. I THINK SHE IS RIGHT. MY KINDNESS FROM YOU. GOD I MISS YOU WHEN I NEED TO TALK.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Hey just wanted to tell you. Today I will be sending in my recommendatio for graduation. Tell Grandma, she will be proud. I cannot wait.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I WENT BACK HOME TODAY. I WAS ALONE THERE. I FOUND MYSELF TALKING TO YOU AND CRYING. I MISS YOU SO. I FEEL SO ALONE AT TIMES. EVEN MORE SO NOW THAT I CANNOT TALK WITH JEANNIE. SHE HAS HER OWN STRUGGLES RIGHT NOW TO WORK THROUGH. I FEEL REAL BAD FOR HER MOM. BUT IT WAS REAL TOUGH WALKING THROUGH THE HOUSE ALONE TODAY. DAD SEEMS TO ENJOY BEING WITH THE KIDS HERE. HE LOVES DANIELLE HANGING OUT WITH HIM. SHE LOVES HIS PLACE TOO. I HAVE PEACE WITH HIM HERE. SOME JUDGE IT BUT I DO NOT CARE ABOUT THEIR JUDGEMENTS. THEY BELONG TO THEM. IT IS NOT THEIR BUSINESS WHAT I DO. I WAS CLEARED OF THE DISEASE THAT YOUR AUNT HAD. TWO MORE TO BE CLEARED OF. NEXT MONTH I SHOULD KNOW MORE. BUT I STILL WALK WITH PEACE. I KNOW THAT GOD IS GUIDING ME WHERE EVER I GO. THE PAIN PROVIDES FUTURE STRENGTH. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH AND THERE IS SO MUCH ABOUT YOU THAT I MISS AND WILL NEVER REGAIN. SOME I SEE IN OTHERS BUT CANNOT ADMIT THE REMINDERS OF YOU TO THEM. THEY DO NOT UNDERSTAND AND GET MAD. I HAVE TO KEEP THAT TO MYSELF. I CANNOT SHARE MYSELF WITH PEOPLE NOW LIKE WITH YOU. THAT IS SO SAD. THAT IS THE HARDEST PART OF ALL. I HURTS SO MUCH TO HAVE THIS EMPTY LOVE THAT NO ONE WANTS OR CARES FOR. I GUESS I FEEL LEFT WITHOUT
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, January 24, 2011
HI MOM,
THINKING ABOUT YOU. THEY THINK THEY KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME. IT MAY BE THE SAME THING AS GRANDMA'S SISTER. IT'S OKAY, I GUESS. SCARY BUT OKAY. I DON'T REMEMBER HOW OLD YOU SAID SHE WAS WHEN SHE WAS DIAGNOSED AND HOW OLD SHE WAS WHEN SHE DIED WITH IT. I KNOW THEY WANT TO KNOW BUT I CANNOT TELL THEM THAT. I THINK IT WAS AROUND MY AGE. WEIRD HOW THINGS TURN OUT HUH. I WILL KNOW MORE IN A MONTH. I AM TRYING TO LOOK AT IT FROM AN OPPORTUNISTIC POINT OF VIEW. THE LORD HAS GIVEN THIS TO ME FOR A REASON. I JUST NEED TO LOOK PAST THE PAIN TO IDENTIFY THE REASON HUH. I LOVE YOU MOM. I GOT DAD WITH ME NOW. HE IS FUNNY HOW HE LIKES THINGS A CERTAIN WAY. IT IS CUTE. I GET A KICK OUT OF HIM. I AM HAPPY TO HAVE HIM WITH ME. GOD HAS BLESSED ME WITH HIM.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, January 23, 2011
HI MOM., I MOVED DAD IN TODAY. TIM DID ALL THE TECHNICAL WORK AT THE HOUSE AND DANIELLE AND I DID ALL THE LOADING AND UNLOADING TOGETHER. IT WAS A LOT OF WORK BUT IT IS DONE. I THINK HE IS HAPPY. I HOPE SO. I JUST WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY. I LOVE HIM AND I HOPE HE IS OKAY NOW. i JUST WANT TO DO WHAT IS BEST FOR MY FAMILY THAT IS ALL I CARE ABOUT. HOPEFULLY I AM DOING GOOD FOR HIM. I LOVE YOU MOM. I HAVE BEEN SAD AND TROUBLED BY A LOT OF THINGS THAT ARE HAPPENING. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. IT IS HARD FOR ME HERE. I AM DOING THE BEST I CAN. MISS YOU EVERY DAY MOM.
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CJ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, January 23, 2011
HI MOM. JUST THINKING ABOUT YOU. DADS APARTMENT IS DECORATED. IT LOOKS AWESOME. WISH YOU COULD SEE IT. HE WILL BE HERE TONIGHT. HE ISNT FELING WELL AGAIN. I WILL BE ABLE TO TAKE CARE OF HIM NOW BETTER FOR YOU. SOME THINGS I WILL MISS A LOT. OH WELL. I SLEPT UNDER OUR QUILT LAST NIGHT ON THE COUCH. I FELT CLOSE TO YOU. MY HEAD WAS REALLY BAD. STILL HURTS. ANYWAY, I LOVE YOU. HELP DANIELLE WITH ME.
C
CJ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, January 20, 2011
CAN'T FREAKING SLEEP TONIGHT. TIRED BUT WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES I CAN'T SLEEP. I NEED TO TALK TO YOU.
C
CJ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, January 20, 2011
ME AGAIN... FEEL BETTER TONIGHT. BEEN THINKING A LOT AND IT JUST DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE. IT IS WHAT IT IS. I LOVE YOU AND I WISH I COULD TALK ABOUT STUFF BECAUSE I NEED TO GET STUFF OFF MY CHEST AND I DON'T HAVE ANYWHERE TO GO ANYMORE. I TRIED DOWN HERE WITH A FEW DIFFERENT PEOPLE BUT IT WAS MISUNDERSTOOD. I REALLY DON'T LIKE THIS ANYMORE. NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME OR KNOWS ME HERE LIKE YOU. YOU GOT ME. NOW I AM MISUNDERSTOOD ALL THE TIME.
C
CJ LJ posted a condolence
Thursday, January 20, 2011
HI MOM GOT SOME BAD NEWS TODAY. GUESS I KNOW WHY I HAVE ALL THESE MIGRAINE NOW. OH WELL, SUCH IS LIFE. DEAL AND MOVE ON. SOME TIMES WE GET DEALT SOUR GRAPES NO BIGGIE HUH. JUST LIVE LIFE AS WE MUST. I DON'T HAVE TIME TO WORRY ABOUT THINGS. I LOVE YOU. I STILL GOT YOUR BACK AS I PROMISED AND I WILL STILL TAKE CARE OF THINGS THE WAY I PROMISED YOU I WOULD. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS MISS YOU. I WISH I HAD YOU TO TALK TO TODAY. I NEED YOU.
C
CJ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
HEY MOM. I SEE JEANNIE SAID HI. SHE IS GOING THROUGH A LOT. HER BEST FRIEND DIED. WISH I COULD HELP HER. SHE HURTS NOW. BUT WE HAVE TO GRIEVE OUR OWN WAY. I EXPERIENCED A DEEP HURT MYSELF TODAY WITH DANIELLE. I FEEL SO HELPLESS. I DON'T LIKE THIS PART OF MOTHERING. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO FOR HER. WISH I COULD TALK TO YOU I NEED ADVISE. CAN'T TALK TO DAD ABOUT GIRL STUFF. HE DONT GET IT. HA HA. I AM LOST WITH THIS. I HATE YOU BEING GONE MOM. I GOT NO ONE.
J
JEANNIE REITZ posted a condolence
Monday, January 17, 2011
Just a note to let you know you are missed. send Lori and Dick a sign they really need you too they need to know your ok. God bless you
C
CJ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, January 17, 2011
HI MOM, I KNOW I ALREADY SAID HI. JUST FEELING LOST AND HELPLESS RIGHT NOW. DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO OR WHERE TO TURN. WISH I COULD TALK TO YOU. I NEED YOU RIGHT NOW. I AM WELL I GUESS YOU KNOW WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH OR WHERE I AM. I NEED YOU BAD.
C
CJ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, January 17, 2011
HI MOM. JUST MISS YOU TODAY. I SPENT THE DAY WITH DANIELLE AND HER FRIEND BUT MY MIND WAS NOT THERE. I TRIED TO HAVE FUN BUT I FEEL SAD TODAY. SOMEDAYS I WISH I COULD GET RID OF THE SADNESS. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I WISH YOU WERE STILL HERE. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MOM. SAY HI TO BETTY FOR ME.
C
CJ LJ posted a condolence
Sunday, January 16, 2011
HI JUST THINKING OF YOU TONIGHT. THIS WOULD HAVE BEEN ON THE PHONE TALKING TO YOU ABOUT STUFF. DANIELLE IS GOING TO ANOTHER DANCE. WE WOULD HAVE BEEN SHOPPING TOGETHER PICKING OUT HER DRESS. SHE IS EXCITED. SOMEONE I LIKE A LOT DIED TODAY. NOT ONLY DO I FEEL BAD BUT IT IS ALSO A FRIEND OF MINES BEST FRIEND SO I FEEL REAL BAD FOR HER TOO. I AM GLAD THAT HER DAUGHTER IS THERE FOR HER. THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS THAT BRING THOUGHTS OF YOU AND CREATE MOMENTS OF BITTER SWEETNESS. I FIND THAT I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND I HURT SO MUCH FOR THAT MOTHER DAUGHTER RELATIONSHIP. BUT IT HAS MADE DANIELLE SO SPECIAL TO ME NOT THAT SHE WASNT BEFORE. I ADORE HER. THE BOYS ARE DOING WELL. SOME TOUGH STRUGGLES BUT THEY ARE GOOD GUYS. YOU KNOW HOW THEY ARE. BUTTON PUSHERS. HA HA. KYLE AND GARRETT ARE GREAT MEN NOW. STILL NEED DIRECTION. THE FAMILY IS GOOD. SCOTT IS HAPPY. DAD WILL BE WITH ME SOON AND I WILL TAKE CARE OF HIM FOR YOU. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MOM. I REALLY DO.
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cj lj posted a condolence
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Hey Mom, guess what danielle bowled a 173 game yesterday. I was so proud of her. I know you would be too. These are the things i wish you could see. I hate not sharing them with you. Dad was hard on her with some of her stuff like he use to be with me. I told him he cant do that with her. She is only bowling for him and you to make you guys happy. She is very sweet. I miss you terrible. I hate this crap.
C
CJ LJ posted a condolence
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
HEY JUST THINKING ABOUT YOU LATELY. I HOPE YOUR OKAY WITH THE HOUSE BEING SOLD. I KNOW YOU LOVED THAT HOUSE. IT IS STAYING IN THE FAMILY SORT OF. IT HAD TO BE DONE. MOM I HATE YOU NOT BEING HERE WITH ME. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. THERE IS SO MUCH YOUR MISSING WITH THE KIDS. ITS NOT FAIR. I KNOW YOUR NEAR US BUT ITS NOT THE SAME ANYMORE. THERE IS ALWAYS A SADDNESS NOW. LOVE YOU
C
CJ LJ posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
I MISS YOU VERY MUCH. IT IS SO HARD HERE WITHOUT YOU. YOU WERE THE ROCK OF THE FAMILY. DAD IS STILL HAVING TROUBLE HE MISSES YOU SO MUCH. HE SHOULD HAVE MOVED IN THIS WEEKEND BUT THERE WERE A FEW PROBLEMS WITH THAT SO HOPEFULLY NEXT WEEKEND. THINGS ARE NEVER EASY ARE THEY. I AM BACK IN SCHOOL BUT I AM STILL STRUGGLING OVER THIS WITHOUT YOU AROUND. I HATE NOT HAVING A MOM AROUND. I TALKED TO A FRIEND WHO IS GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING AND HE STRUGGLES TOO. IT SUCKS SO BAD. I WISH I COULD BRING YOU BACK. BUT I GUESS GOD NEEDED YOU AND OUR TIME WITH YOU WAS OVER. HOWEVER THE PAIN IS NOT.
DANIELLE IS BECOMING QUITE THE BOWLER. YOU WOULD BE PROUD. SHE WILL FILL YOUR SHOES NICELY. LOVE YOU
C
CJ LJ posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
DAD SHOULD BE MOVING NEXT WEEK. A LOT HAS BEEN GOING ON AND DAD HAS NOT BEEN WELL. I AM DOING WHAT I CAN. LOVE YA
C
CJ LJ posted a condolence
Saturday, January 1, 2011
HI... ANOTHER YEAR STARTED... WE ARE PAINTING DADS PLACE. I SHOULD SAY TIM. I AM MORE IN THE WAY THAN A HELP. BETWEEN MAC AND I WE ARE GETTING THROUGH TO DAD PRETTY GOOD. TAG TEAM PLAYERS. SHE IS AN AWESOME FRIEND. LOVE HER. MISS YOU ALWAYS.
C
CJ LJ posted a condolence
Monday, December 27, 2010
christmas is over and another year is coming to an end. It is hard to believe you have been gone for a year. Not a day goes by that I don't miss you. Nothing can replace the pain of you being gone. I never realize how much you meant to me or the depth that you meant. I don't think anyone ever does until a person is gone. I took you for granted. sorry about that. that was not cool of me. cant take that back. I don't think I will ever be the same. this has wrecked me inside badly. turned me upside down. i love you a lot and miss you greatly. I lost a lot last year more than i ever imagined or dreamed possible. More than i can ever gain.
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cj lj posted a condolence
Monday, December 27, 2010
hey just thinking of you today. christmas is over. another year is coming to an end. hard to believe you have been gone for a year now. I am still having trouble adjust to you not being hear. I don't know that I will ever adjust but I guess i never knew just how much you affected me. I took you for granted. sorry about that. Not cool of me to do that. You never know untill you lose someone what they meant or the depth of what they meant. no one can replace that. No one can heal this. I truly miss you. everyday.
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hi there posted a condolence
Saturday, December 25, 2010
MERRY CHRISTMAS MOM. I MISS YOU TODAY. I AM THINKING OF YOU. I TRIED TO MKE IT SPECIAL TODAY. DAD IS SAD HELP HIM. I DON'T KNOW HOW. I WISH I DID MOM. I GUESS THAT IS A PART OF YOU I DON'T HAVE. MISS YOU SO MUCH. IT IS NOT THE SAME WITHOUT YOU.
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hey there posted a condolence
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Today kyle turned twenty. Wow! The memories. Tonight we celebrate. Bitter sweet. Love you
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hi lj there posted a condolence
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Just thinking about you tonight. I have a lot on my mind right now. Wish you were here. Kind of lonely and empty without you. I am worried about stuff. Just different now. Complicated all around. Don't think thing will ever be right again.
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hi mom posted a condolence
Monday, December 20, 2010
It christmas time again. I miss you a lot. I am glad I can write again. Dad will be moving in soon. This year is filled with many bitter sweets. Some joys and some pain. Your forever in my heart.
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Hi posted a condolence
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Jeannie has your Advent tree out that I gave her. Her granddaughter loves that tree. It is that time of year again. Your fish tank is doing great now. Rangeley had another seizure. poor girl. Everyone is doing great but we sure miss you. Love you always.
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hi mom posted a condolence
Saturday, November 27, 2010
danielle did really well at bowling today. wish you could have seen her. she is quite the bowler. she is really grown up in the year since you have been gone. she is so different. I miss sharing stuff with you. I hate doing it this way. I hate to see you in a picture. I miss you. I bought new furniture. It looks so nice. I love you and miss you so much these days. I really do. These are really hard times.
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thanksgiving posted a condolence
Thursday, November 25, 2010
It went well. we had a lot of food. The cabin was awesome. Kids had fun too. Dad ate so much. I cooked way too much again. I love you.
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HI MOM posted a condolence
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
HAPPY THANKSGIVING MOM... BIG DAY TOMORROW. ALL THE FAMILIES WILL BE TOGETHER. SCOTTS. MINE AND TIMS. HOPE IT GOES WELL.I MISS TALKING TO YOU. YOU GET ME. WE COULD TALK UNCONDITIONALLY. NOW EVERYTHING HAS A CONDITION TO IT. I HATE THAT. I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL I DIDN'T HAVE TO WITH YOU. I DON'T HAVE THAT ANYMORE. I WANT THAT SO BAD. I WISH I COULD HAVE YOU BACK. I HATE THIS MOM.
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hey posted a condolence
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Hi. Just thinking. I hate seeing you this way. I told Tim this is one thing I really miss about you. I could talk to you. You get me. You understand and know the kids. No one else does. They all misunderstand them and me. I really miss that about you. I think that is the worse. I tried with his mom but she doesn't know the kids like you. I just didn't work. I am so frustrated looking for someone to be there for me unconditionally like you.
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hi posted a condolence
Monday, November 22, 2010
went to see Dad showed him pictures of his new place. He likes it. His shoulder hurts him. So i helped him with it. Not feeling well tonight. No biggie. I will be fine. Scott is going back to florida soon. I need help with some stuff but I am doing okay with most now. Love ya.
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HELLO posted a condolence
Monday, November 22, 2010
surprise guess who... the night owl. funny that was dad's nickname from danielle when he worked nights. Now i am up all night. Dad called today. I think he is worried Tim is going to make venison for thanksgiving. He keeps asking if he got a deer. Danielle goes with him and Kyle Tuesday. I will laugh if she gets the big one. These teenagers sure are tough ones this weekend. Wow. Where's your wooden spoon.. (ha ha) I missed you today. I went out shopping and running around like we used to do. I hate doing that alone now. Say hi to everyone for me. Love ya always
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hey posted a condolence
Sunday, November 21, 2010
very tired never slept last night. bad night. I need to talk with someone. I don't know where to turn. I have to make some drastic decisions. I am scared and worried by them. Cycles keep happening. I have so many to break now. I do love you mom I do carry you in my heart now always. I also do think of you always. I wish I didn't lose you at a time in my life when I need a mother figure for guidance. But God needed you more than I. You just understood the delicate situation that I am now faced with and could guide me through it. Not sure what to do with this now. I need guidance.
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hi posted a condolence
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Can't sleep. Not sure why. Tired. Bad night tonight for me. wish thongs went better. I am very worried away . I low it will be okay
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Hi posted a condolence
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Well it is hunting season again... I am doing my usual during that time. cleaning and redecorating. Tim is gone so no one around to say I don't like it. ha ha.. I am having fun doing it. I have all the girls this weekend. Steph needs me pretty bad. Your fish tank needs your help. I am struggling with it. Seems like that is the trend these days, struggles. I know your in my heart but it isn't the same. I keep finding the wrong path and need someone close to me for daily encouragement and guidance and talks. I miss that so much now. I guess that is the emptiness that just does not change for me. I need and cannot fill without hurt. I don't know. Just don't know I just wish you were here.
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Hey posted a condolence
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Miss ya. Thinking about you quite a bit today. I got great scores in class this quarter. God I can't wait until this is all over. I want to start making changes in my life. I am ready to let go and start a new road where I am not known. Say hi to everyone there.
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hi posted a condolence
Thursday, November 18, 2010
I guess this would be our afternoon talk. I am missing you today. This is a tough time. Wish I could talk. I have so much to say that I can't anymore. I miss that. I can't seem to concentrate much today. My mind is all over the place. Lots of un answered thoughts about stuff. A year has gone by, this should be done. You know. I don't get it. I do understand now . Wish it was different. Can't change it. You know what I mean. Sorry. Love ya.
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Hey posted a condolence
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Forgot to tell you.
I had a little thanks giving with a group of friends tonight. There were about ten of us that got together and we had a cute little buddy thanksgiving. It was nice. Got a new apple pie recipe. Who new that it is all in the spice. ha ha. It was fun. Short but fun. Just what I needed tonight. met at a nice quiet little place and sat and talked. One of my friends Jen is moving. Well temporary trial for three months. I kind of hope she doesn't like it. (lol) She said we have to skype her in next get together. Not sure I know how to do that. ha ha. If she doesn't like it she will be back she said. She is lucky she has a cool job like that.
I just wanted to tell you about it, something new we tried. We all had fun. Life.... New trends and new traditions. huh
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hey mom posted a condolence
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Had a long talk with someone tonight. I'm sad. seems more walks away than walks with me. I know it is life and I just need to focus through this and this too shall pass. As I say, shed the tear and turn the page just like you taught me. past is past let it go. Love you for that advise it works. Take care of those gone. miss you. I will get through it.
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hey mom posted a condolence
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
I can't sleep again. I messed up. My words I used as my everyday words were mistaken to imply something else. Not someone thinks something that is far from true. Not sure what to do to fix a wrong. You know how I am. Wish you were here for this one. See still need your guidance. LOL. Don't matter how old I get. Ha ha.still having trouble with sleep. but I got my homework done.. :-) love ya. Stand close I need you.
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hi again posted a condolence
Monday, November 15, 2010
I don't know why I am back here. something drew me here. guess i needed to say more. Lore's interview seemed to go well. We find out thursday. Everything relies on it. I am praying for it. I am troubled and confused a bit over some stuff. Wish I could figure it out not sure what to do with it. Wish I could talk it over or bounce it off somewhere to get some logical answers. sometimes two heads are better than one for another perspective. Whatever. I am not going to be writing to you as much. I have to get dad settled. I will do what i can.
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Hi mom posted a condolence
Monday, November 15, 2010
Busy day today. Had a lot of running around to do. Still have to go out yet and get stuff done for Dad. Trying to get some homework in first. Hard tonight. I am struggling with a migraine. But school does not care about that so I cannot either...lol. Lore is at a job interview right now. Hope she gets it. A lot rides on it. I am keeping my fingers and toes crossed. Steph is going through hard times. She needs me bad tonight. Everyone is doing great in the family. Kids are great. Kyle is on a trip he will be home this week. I miss his humor. Your right I will definately get the empty nest syndrome when they move out. I have become so close to the kids now that they are older. I have so much fun with them all now. It is great. Dad wants to get a Wii for his new apartment. Can you see him. he is so funny. he wants a loft and an indoor driving range. he is out of control. crazy boy. he makes me laugh. It is getting closer. I am glad i have a huge class break to enjoy some time with him when he moves in.
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Hi posted a condolence
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Guess what, doing really good in school again. Talked to scott today. Sounded tired. He had a nice birthday I guess. Miss ya. Tough spots today but no biggie shit happens I guess. Toughest part was nowhere to turn nowhere to talk and everywhere misunderstood. But thats life. Huh. I don't know somedays clouds are pretty heavy. No worries right. Had a long talk with steph today. I felt bad for her, I didn't want to take leave her at home tonight. tough call with that too. I am gonna try to sleep tonight love ya
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Hey posted a condolence
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Cleaned out the garage today. I guess I found your hiding place. Ha ha. Wow the treasures. Dad was amazed too. I still have half the garage to do yet. But it is looking good. Love you. Scott moved up the wedding to September 10, 2011. Love you.
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Hi mom posted a condolence
Thursday, November 11, 2010
tomorrow your boy turns 47 years old. I am suppose to go to a party for him. It bothers me you know what I mean. Can you believe he will be 47. I will give him a hug for you. His girl is very good for him. Dad like her too. I wish you could have spent more time with her. Glad you got to meet her. Dad started thinking about christmas. Wants me to start shopping. Has phone issues. He makes me laugh. He drives me crazy. Its a wonder you didn't have more gray hair. lol It wasn't scott and I. Anyway, a lot is going on again. same old same old with me huh. I never do things easy do I . Full force high speed ahead. but it is all coming together.
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Hi there posted a condolence
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
not a bad day today. a very dear friend is going to be leaving me soon. It is sad but it would be worse to expect him to stay they way he feels. Take care of sammy, he is dear to me. Dad is doing okay. I think he is starting to get excited. Garrett is getting better little by little. I know we all worry about him. I have always been protective of him. That will never change. I love you but I want you to know I am doing fine. I am as strong as you see me.
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hey posted a condolence
Saturday, November 6, 2010
getting ready for Timmys birthday. Brought home the christmas catus. It is huge now. Dad has actually been taking care of it. Surprise he has a bit of a green thumb. Danielle, Jessie and I went birthday shopping today. We had fun. We are all being a bit of a smart ass with Tim. Surprise Surprise. Can't wait until he sees it. I am having a big party for him without him knowing. I hope he hunts tomorrow so I can cook up a storm.
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hi posted a condolence
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Everyone is doing real good. Having a great time. Saw Aunt Diane tonight. She seems to be doing real well. I am feeling really great now. Things are going so well. Thanks for the message.
H
Hi posted a condolence
Monday, November 1, 2010
tough day all around today. Met many difficulties all day today. One of those days I should have forgotten existed. Started with Coffee and went down from there. Many challenges against my persona all day. I was angry today. I had to bite my tongue to keep my cool. I use to be good at that. not any more. tonight my head hurts alot from all the stress against me. Thanks you for your fish tank. They are relaxing. Love it.
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Hey posted a condolence
Sunday, October 31, 2010
just wanted to tell you I brought home your hexagon fish tank. I cleaned it all out and set it all up. It looks real nice in my house. I really like it, I think the fish do to. Now I can get more goldfish. Dad talked me into it. He knew how much I liked it and how much you did. Kyle liked it too. Garrett was so surprised to see it and Danielle was so excited to know I was bringing it home. They all loved that fish tank. I never realized it. I still need to get a new heater for it. But goldfish don't care. But Ocscar stays, He is just to big for me. Sorry. The fish are so relaxing to watch. Garrett has your waterfall. He loves to watch it. I do love you and miss you. I have lost a lot recently I know and I am mad about that. I don't know why I am doing what I am doing. I have to get my crap back together. I keep doing this don't I. Same pattern keeps repeating itself huh. Not good huh. Wish you were here today. It is so quiet and there is no one here today. love ya
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hey posted a condolence
Friday, October 29, 2010
hi not much going on. tomorrow the dig starts. count down starts. love ya.
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hey posted a condolence
Thursday, October 28, 2010
another day gone by. another day with you on my mind. Soon Dad will be moving in and the house will be sold soon. they are changes that leave both good and sad feelings. but life does that to us. Everything is emotional. I am learning that the hard way lately. But I cannot hold onto what is not mine to hold onto.
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hi posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Just want you to know everything will be okay. I will get past today and tomorrow will bring new light. I am going to have another tough day ahead to swallow. It is going to hit me real real hard. I think it may set me back quite a bit. But i will have to just start over again. I have support since your passing I will have to use them when this hits. I am having a hard time with it now. I will take it as easy as i can.
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hi mom posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
i love you.... sad day today.. I feel horrible. I wish you were here for me.
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hi mom posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
just letting you know I love you..
Scott is doing good so is the rest of the family. we all love you so much and miss you a lot. your one of the bestest in the world. Your family is staying close together, I know you worried about that after what happened in the other situation in the family. I can assure you your family is different. We love each other a lot. you brought us up well. You did such an amazing job, I hope I can do equal the job you did and instill the values you did with scott and I. Your the best mom.
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hey mom posted a condolence
Monday, October 25, 2010
just me trying to think like you. I need to find stuff again and you always had the most unique safe places to put things that only you understand. You drive me crazy still. LOL... I remember you sending me in a room to find a purple thing only to find out that a purple thing didn't exist in that room. then you sit there and laugh. Feels like one of those times again. LOL... Things are going well. I miss you and love you. Everyone is doing great. School is almost over. I cant wait. It is soooo exhausting. I dont know what I was thinking... 40's and college.. duh.. crazy I know. But I wanted to do it for you and make you proud of me. something to make you smile. I know you always wanted this. Garrett is doing so well with his photography. He loves it. wish you could see his pictures. They are amazing. I am so proud of him. Danielle is going out for the bowling team in high school. Kyle is going to school to be a police officer. you would be so proud of them mom. They are turning around. Garrett still challenges us but he is a good egg.
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Hi again posted a condolence
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Hi it me thinking about you tonight. This is the time of night that you would be calling me and talking about nothing but just talking. miss that. I went and had our family picture of tim and I and the kids enlarged and hung it up. looks nice. also put pics up of the kids. Took danielle and Jesse with me. Big mistake they cost me money. Jesse adopted me as her mom. She love me too. I think she just likes Danielle. You would like her. She talks a lot like Danielle. There are so many things about you I miss every day. I wish this never happened. It really sucks not having you around. I thought it might be easier this time around but it is not any easier. Jeannie was so right. It is just as bad. I wish i could have you back. I wish those doctors never stopped that chemo pill. I bet you would still be here. it would have been better. But I shouldn't blame them. God wanted you bad.
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hi posted a condolence
Sunday, October 24, 2010
hey good day today. I am keeping busy doing my stuff and getting things done. Cleaning, homework later errands. Dad isn't feeling well. He was going to visit you but he went home to bed. He feels weak. I am going to check on him later. I worry about him. Boys are going hunting, danielle and I are going to the gym later. I am busy today so I don't have time to get bummed out. But I still miss you like crazy. you are always on my mind. I often think about what we would be doing if you were hear. How right now we would be out doing stuff together. I miss that so much, I don't have that to share with anyone anymore. That is so empty. I dont like doing that alone. It sucks. I think about you everytime I am out alone. I get so sad. But it is just another part of life now. Something I have to get use to huh. I guess I will be fine in time. Part of the process It sucks but whatever it is what I have to deal with. I love you so much.
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hey mom posted a condolence
Saturday, October 23, 2010
just wanted to tell you that danielle bowled good her first two games. then she had some trouble. She is going out for the high school team. I also found out i know your an old bowling friend of yours. Susie chinelli. Dad told me she bowled with you for years. I never put two and two together.
Garrett was a pain in the butt today. You remember those days how you struggled with him. He gave us some struggles today. We had to tighten the reins a bit. He didnt like it at all, I have to go check on him in a little while to make sure he is okay. I am giving him some space to calm down. He is a tough kid mom. It is funny how the cycles of life repeat themselves until the cycles break. I worry about him carrying the cycle of that Jim did in our family. I had a lot on my plate today for dad. I met with the realtor today. Mom I hope I am doing the right thing by you. I worry about dad. I hope things will be okay for him. We talk a lot, we are closer than we ever were. But i don't ever want to do things that push a person down the wrong road. I love you mom, i miss you terribly and wish you were with us. I really could use your encouragement and hug right now. I need support so bad now. Just don't have it.
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hi posted a condolence
Friday, October 22, 2010
me bugging you as usual. Hi, i know this makes no sense me talking to you like this. I just feel comfort from it I guess. I don't know. I miss you so much. I never realized how much we had together. It was so much more that just mom/daughter. I dont think i will every be okay.
Funny thing is Danielle and I are the same way. History sure does repeat itself huh. You were always there no matter what. We were just a call away. It sure was great. I hate it no. I am going nuts lately. I don't know what is going on. I cant keep anything straight. I am loosing my mind. I know I lost it a long time ago ha ha... Dad wants to put a driving range in his new apartment. He has big dreams. Tim laughed almost as much as I did when he mentioned it. I wish I could do it for him. He is like having another kid in the house. he will put the damn golf ball right through a window. lol... you must have be a saint mom. No wonder God loved you so much. lol. He will have to drive the balls in the back yard. anyway know that you mean the world to me and I love you dearly and miss you greatly. Always know that and always remember
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HEY THERE posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
DOING OKAY. LIFE IS ABSOLUTELY INSANE HERE. IT JUST KEEPS GOING CRAZIER AND CRAZIER. I DON'T SEE SANITY IN THE FUTURE. WISH I DID. I am really trying to let go of things. I know there is so much that cannot be changed but for some reason I feel I need to take care of it. You know me, I love everyone and care about everyone and want to make the world happy. Make a difference in the world, make a change. Starting to think it cant happen.
Family is doing well, Kids are changing a lot. Danielle misses you a lot. I know Dad talked to me about his discussion with you about Garrett. He is worried about him too. He will be okay. I think dads idea is good. I see you heard from Jeannie again. She is very Loyal and has really been there for me. Anyway, I miss you alot, I am going through a lot of stuff right now. I wish you were here by my side to talk with about it and give me some guidence. I sure could use it. I really need the talk time to just sit and talk it out. But whatever, its all good. No biggie. I will adjust in time. Miss ya a lot. Love ya forever.
J
JEANNIE posted a condolence
Monday, October 18, 2010
Hi Carol just wanted to say your missed. Lori is really having a hard time you need to send her a sign to let her know your near her. she will be ok she just needs time to heal. send Dick a sign too he is lost without you.
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hey posted a condolence
Monday, October 18, 2010
should have given you a cell phone ha ha. cant sleep, cant focus on homework. got a paper due in a few hours. cant seem to get to it. my mind is all over the place tonight. see if you had a cell phone i could text ya...lol i dont know what is going on. cant seem to quiet the mind tonight. I need to get the paper done. but there is just too much going on inside. It is like a whirlwind. Tim isn't feeling well. Night love you miss you
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hi posted a condolence
Monday, October 18, 2010
crazy day today. I had so much to do and as usual never enough time to get it done. I have been thinking a lot about you today. I realized a lot of stuff today. I have a long road ahead of me and a lot of changes ahead of me and a lot of work. I never seem to get the easy road and I always get the short end of the stick to work with. It is okay, you and I know I manage fine. just off kilter but fine. today I really could use a hug. Wish you were here. Miss that. Oh well. I love you.
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hey posted a condolence
Saturday, October 16, 2010
I have been having some trouble sorting stuff out. But I know what needs to be done. I have to close out what was done and move forward with what needs to be done. I am going to carry you with me forever and there will never be a day that you will not be on my mind. I apologize for not being there for you when I should have been. I can see that now. In my youth I could not appreciate that. I am glad you had dad atleast. I just didn't understand and couldn't at that time in my life. but the past has gone by now and I have let that go for I know you love me. I miss you daily.
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hi posted a condolence
Thursday, October 14, 2010
me again.
see I still bug you every day. I love you and miss you. tough day. Lots of pain today. I had a hard time getting through the day. I am going to the doc tomorrow. Think i sold your house. Banks are talking. I hope things work Out. This will be short. Iam very tired out tonight. need sleep. love you mom. i miss you so much. Stay near tomorrow. I will need your strength.
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hi again posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
I showed your house tonight. I think they like it. They are going to talk to the realtor tomorrow to see what they need to do. I hope it works out it would be nice if they get it. I will have a lot of work to do to get it ready for them. But it's no biggie, I don't care. Roll with the punches huh mom thats what we do. We just do what we have to do to get by.
I am being real quiet this week to take some self reflections on some things I am struggling hard with trying to rationalize them in my head. kind of a self sebaticle. stearing clear of people unless i have to deal with them. I am shutting them all off for a little while. Self reflection. It isnt working though I keep getting interuptions. I should have gone away. lol I am still sick, I will be going back to the doctor soon. I have a few lined up. I still do things bizarre. I know your laughing at me but I am special that way. I really wish you could be here with me but whatever. It is what it is. trudge ahead and move on. I cant seem to focus tonight. to much going on. there is no path to what through my plate. I finally just gave up out of exhaustion. I just cannot do it anymore. Tomorrow is just another day I will try harder tomorrow.
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hi posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
me think of you again. Nothing new. Garrett wants a body piercing. He is a challenge still. Dad is doing well. Kyle is going to college. Danielle is in high school. I miss you still and think about you so often. There is so many things I wish you were here to share with us. I sucks that your not. But God needed you more and he got the best of the best. I am sure you are orchestrating everything up there as you did down here. I saw nick last week he is so big. mom there are some days I have really needed you lately I feel like a empty soul.
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hey posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Hi Thinking of you.
You were on my mind last night. Had a difficult night. I remember those days when I would come home from work and you would tell me about your difficult days with Garrett. Remember the hell he put you through at daycare. He is seventeen today. Funny I still can reach him when I reach myself. Remember that.
MAC asked if I remembered and was okay on the 8th. I said yea. I told her these past few days are the times I really wish for you. She understood, she loves you a lot. As thoughtful as it was, people kept sending me text messages telling me that they were thinking of me and reminding me that they knew it would be tough and reminding me that they knew I remembered. I just wanted to put it out of my mind and all day long my phone would n't stop. I got very angry. I understood they meant well but at they same time HELLO. what are they thinking. Let a person heal. Love ya always and forever. Found out two of my very very dear close friends are terminal today. Hard blow. soon they will be with you mom. Everything happens in threes, I waiting for the third. Almost afraid to find out. But everything happens in threes. We just had three more deaths too.
Uncle Howie fell and broke his leg. He wants Kristen to move in to the house and give her the house. Tell Aunt sharon to help them with that. Uncle howie talked to Tim about it. He is afraid to ask kristen. He needs her. He cant see well anymore. I think they could use each others support. anyway, Say hi to everyone for me. Tell Grandpa laging I said hi and I love him. I miss him alot for some reason lately.
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Hey there posted a condolence
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Thinking about you I don't know why but I just can't get you off my mind. I met with the realator today. It bothers me a little bit. I thought it wouldn't but I guess inside it does. I feel your presence there and I am not sure i will anymore. i know that sounds foolish but foolish things pop into my head now and then. I just keep them to myself now. It just felt so right up till now. Now I am worried. I guess I need to talk it out but there is no one to talk it out with. I just need to go with the flow like always. Things have a way of working out. somehow. I sure do miss having you to talk things out with. Wish you were here. I hate being here without you. It sucks here, you can't put to much faith in anything here. Anyway, I wish I were with you and we still had more time together. I miss you a lot. I love you. Maybe it is because today was your calling hours, I don't know. or I am alone. I am not sure. But rumination is not good I do know that much. Love you always
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hi posted a condolence
Thursday, October 7, 2010
I miss you a lot. i wish i were with you. It sucks here. I hate being here without you. People suck here. I bet it is nicer where you are. I bet you are surrounded by happiness not rotteness. I just want to be left alone. I don't want anyone around me anymore. I am tired of people and the pain they cause. Your grandkids are doing great so are your family. we love you very much.
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Hi mom posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Not doing well. I am sick. feel crummy. Danielle talked to me abouut you today. she is having trouble with the thought of friday coming up. She said she is going to be so miserable. I told her i will too. I think we should both take the day off and do something together. I should I know it will be a useless day. I have to push through it somehow. I will. I have been unfocused this week. you are really on my mind a lot. just more tough days ahead again. Wish I had help through it but there is no help. what is inside is just that inside. I will be with Danielle the best I can to help her. We are very close. I love you Mom. This is all real crazy and what it does to a person inside is so messed up. I cant even explain it. It is so dark and messed up.
I wish it could end. I love you and miss you always.
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hi posted a condolence
Monday, October 4, 2010
Im just thinking of you. Feeling a little under the weather today. Getting sick. I have been real tired lately I guess it is catching up with me. Dad is running things this weekend. LOL hope I have a house left. Garrett's birthday is coming up next week. He will be 17. Can you believe it. He is getting so old. Kyle turns 20 this year. Danielle turns 15. I can't believe it will be a year on Friday mom. It feels like yesterday. i don't know where this year went or how the hell I made it without you. but I guess i found a way. Mom I love you so much and I miss you everyday. Your always on my mind. I cant go a day without thinking about you. There are still moments that it is so surreal. less and less now. I just wish you could be here for a few things it would be comforting to have you there for. I don't like having to do somethings alone. I am getting better you know me I am a talker. I have to talk things out to rationalize them. as long as I have someone to do that with i will be okay. so far so good. love ya miss ya forever
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hi mom posted a condolence
Saturday, October 2, 2010
I was just thinking about you. I am trying to do things the way you would want me to. I hope the way I am spreading your stuff around to your friends makes you happy. I think everyone should have a piece of you. I love you mom. Pretty soon dad will be with me. I think he will be happy with us. Your loved by so many and you gave so much yourself to so many I thought it was best to continue that. You always put others first. I guess i got that from you. It has been almost a year now and yet your memory still lives on. I want to be just like you. Your forever my hero. I will always admire you. Life is messed up down here but its life just the same. I am glad your in a place without pain or cancer I miss you but i know your better now. Love you forever mom
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hey posted a condolence
Sunday, September 26, 2010
I just got home from a chamot thing. I am not feeling well. Some things never change. Still same crap from childhood. Dad, Scott and Lara went to Sandi's fund raiser dinner. Dad said she is doing okay. I love you and miss you. I will always love you and miss you. I have a lot of stress right now in my life. I know I am always in the stress mode but this is different.I am struggling with this. I have to step back a bit and put the pieces of this puzzle together so I can see the big picture. I will prevale with this as well. I have faith. I love you.
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hey posted a condolence
Friday, September 24, 2010
Feeling alone and empty. hard to believe it is almost a year now. mist you like crazy. Been having terrible dreams about you trying to help you when the docs said you couldn't be saved. I can see my self flipping out feeling helpless wondering what you were thinking as you laid there. I wanted to smack that doc. I hate what happened to you. It isn't fair. i wish i could have done more to make you more comfortable. I hope you know i did the best i could. I hate not having you here. this place sucks.
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Hi mom posted a condolence
Thursday, September 23, 2010
I almost fell apart today. I don't know what came over me. I missed you. Danielle fell apart to. she is so worried about me having the same problem as you. She is afraid I have a tumor too. I told her it is okay. I told her I am okay and not to worry. Please comfort her mom. I love you mom. I miss you. I hope all will be okay soon I will know. I never do things normal but I think all that I have done would have made you proud of me. I just want you to know you mean a lot to me and I love you. I comforted danielle tonight. but let her know how much you love her
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hey posted a condolence
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
missed you today. You would have been proud of me for standing up today. Would have love to been able to call and had you there to tell. I miss that. I don't have anyone to just call and share my excitements with. I miss you. Love you always.
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hey posted a condolence
Saturday, September 18, 2010
hi just thinking about you. I am trying to change my ways. I am having trouble. I need encouragement. I need to know I am doing the right thing. send me a sign and let me know it is okay. I sure do miss you these days. I really could use your company and have you by my side. I wish I could have you by my side these days for some things. You always gave me strength and comfort. I love you and miss you.
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hey posted a condolence
Friday, September 17, 2010
hi again. just want you to know, jeannie has been talking both dad and i straight lately. she is a big help. I am going to be okay with everything. Docs are right on top of everything no worries. I love you. and all is well. Dad seems to be doing better I think he will see your signs now. start sending him some more signs. Thank you for all the ones that you have been sending me. I enjoy them. It sucks without you. I dont like living without a mother but that is not my choice. I do not make those choices. Thank you for letting me know I am doing the right thing and your happy with me.
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hi mom posted a condolence
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Today was an okay day. It was my birthday today. I had a lot of people wishing me a good one. But I was alone the whole day. I guess that is part of being older. It changes. It is okay though. No biggie. Dad needs you let him know you hear him give him a sign again. It has been a while. Kids are all good. They miss you. Danielle really loves you. She talks about you alot. I am doing better, Jeannie has helped me like she said she would. Pretty soon I will be out of college. Donna wants me to go to the ceremony. She said I earned it and I should for you. Tim said he will do a ceremony in the back yard for you (ha ha). Anyway I missed you a lot today. This place really bites the big one somedays it is so mundane here now. It is like just going through the motions. Whatever. There is such an emptyness that removes me from everything. I am there but not really there. The care is not truly back. I get why people don't move on.
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Hey posted a condolence
Saturday, September 11, 2010
I am doing well. I will be doing alot better now. I have refocused.
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hi posted a condolence
Friday, September 10, 2010
you know i love you. Did you always know that. Sometimes it felt like you wanted more. I know i wasn' perfect but I always loved you.
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Hi mom posted a condolence
Thursday, September 9, 2010
I have been working real hard lately getting things ready for dad. You know how I work. till it is done. I have been very tired. not sleeping well. I keep trying but so far no luck. I think it will be good for dad. when all is done.
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hi mom posted a condolence
Saturday, September 4, 2010
just want you to know I am okay. No matter how tuff things are I am going to be just fine. I want you to know I love you and I will be fine. I know there is a lot of changes going on and it does stress me out but it will be fine. Everything happens for a reason. I will be there for dad just like I promised you. That is my role. I love you both so much I will never turn my back on my parents. love you always mom. Say hi to Grandpa Laging for me and Grandma and Grandpa Reynolds. I miss them. Lately, I keep reliving your last days. I don't know why. You were so sweet.
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hey there posted a condolence
Thursday, September 2, 2010
well kyle and I gave up on everyone and took off. We left together for Niagara falls. It was a good day together. He told me he had a great time. He laughed, i pulled a carol and walked face first right into a sign. People everywhere were laughing at me to. I couldn't stop laughing. It reminded me of my clutzy mom. It was funny. I think kyle wanted to pretend he didn't know me. It has been so long since the kids were there. I guess dad went out with friends instead. Like I said I don't like it when people make promises or plans with me. They always break them and disappoint me. I end up the hurt one. Whatever huh mom. No biggie people are people another day in paradise. I love you so much mom. I really do miss you in many ways. I could always count on you being there. I wish I still had that. It is lonely. But things will be changing soon yet again. I hope I am ready. I think I will have hit all of lifes major stresses by the end of next year huh. crazy if I make it through. stay by my side. ha ha. you were one of the greatest here i am sure you are one of the greatest up there. love ya
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hey ma posted a condolence
Thursday, September 2, 2010
well the caves didn't happen. dad isn't answering garrett won't go. Kyle wants to but didn't get up in time. the usual. All the reasons I don't make plans with people. disappointments and let downs. Know one ever sticks by a promise. Oh well no biggie huh mom. just another day in paradise. lol.. wish you were here to go with. It would have been fun huh. I wish people would not make promises to me. Well I am almost through the week and Timmy and Danielle will be home. Love you mom. Sorry but I cant write anymore right now. I gotta go.
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hey posted a condolence
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
tomorrow i am going to the cave. I am doing it for the kids. I do 't really want to be there. just going through the emotions. I am having trouble again. whatever no biggie i will deal with it like always huh. You know the depth of the troubles I need you really bad right now. I just really need help.
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hi posted a condolence
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
I missed you lately quite a bit. I have been thinging so much about you with all the cleaning I have been doing. There have been so many memories and emotions getting kicked up. It is huge mom for both dad and I. It has been tough on dad but it is really messing with me. I with I could talk with you about it. Tim and Danielle are away so I really can not get out some of what I feel. It is hard. I am trying so hard to get it all done for dad. I just have to put it all aside for him. I wish we could talk. I love you and miss you so much. Love always always...
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hey ma posted a condolence
Sunday, August 29, 2010
guess what i found .... your wedding pictures. remember you couldnt tell us where they were. i would have forgot to. you hid them well. i found my baby pictures too. im glad. i went out to dinner with dad tonight and the boys. it was nice. missed you. would have been nice with you there. kyle has really been turning around. very helpful. you would be proud of him. He looks so much like dad went you to got married. i never saw it before now. i really miss you. say hi to grandpa Laging, he has been in my thoughts a lot.
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mom posted a condolence
Sunday, August 29, 2010
yesterday was 22 years for timmy and i. nice huh. I look at you and all this still feels so surreal. I expect you to call and ask me if I am watching something on tv. then talk about it. I cant believe next month it will be a year already. I still don't have it under control I still have tough days. crazy. Who would have thought. You always thought I was a hard ass. lol you should see me now. So much for the tough medical heartless girl you thought I was. Guess you only saw the outside. miss you and love you forever.
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Hey Ma posted a condolence
Saturday, August 28, 2010
I see you hear from Jeannie. It is nice that she talks to you. You two would have been good friends. she is pretty cool.
Thinking of you lately with all the past that I have been kicking up cleaning out the house. Some good memories some sad ones. Funny, when I hit a sad moment you have a way of making me laugh. I was trying to take a picture of some of the old photos I found. no problem. until I found a beautiful one of you. The flash kept coming out right on your nose. Made you look like rudolph. Thanks for the laugh. You always broke up the sad times with laughter. found happiness in the worse of times. A gift i am trying to achieve. I have a lot of work ahead of me with the house getting things ready. worried about dad. help him through this for me. I gave some of your little trinkets to the girls at work. the loved it. some of their eyes welled up with tears that i would think to share you with them. I figure better to share it with someone who shares your passion than no one. they gave me a thank you card and said they will always think of you and my thoughtfulness. nice huh. I kept a wackey looking golfer with a goofy face. makes me smile and think of you and golfing. thats all i need. kids are doing ok. college for kyle and high school for garrett and danielle soon. hurray huh. bowling season for danielle again. she is following in your foot steps huh. I think she likes that. she still talks about how much she misses you and wishes it was someone elses grandma not hers. I told her she is lucky because her grandma is closer to her than any other. hers is in her heart. she smiled. say hi to everyone mom. grandma and grandpa laging and huss and reynolds and aunt sharon. I miss them. Lately grandpa laging has been in my thought alot too. I don't know why. but let him know i love him.
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JEANNIE posted a condolence
Monday, August 23, 2010
HI CAROL I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW I'AM TRYING TO HELP LORI I BEEN ALITTLE TOUGH WITH HER NOT THAT I WANTED TO BUT I KNOW SHE IN PAIN AND I'M TRYING TO HELP HER GET THOUGH IT. I BEEN THERE AND I KNOW THE SADDNEST AND HURT. I DON'T WANT TO HURT HER BUT I CAN'T JUST SAY WHAT SHE WANTS BECAUSE I KNOW IT WILL BE MUCH WORST FOR HER. AS THEY TOUGH LOVE . ANYWAY I'LL DO WHAT I CAN AND YOU KEEP WATCH OVER HER AND SEND HER A SIGN SO SHE KNOWS YOUR THERE FOR HER. YOU ARE MISS
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hey mom posted a condolence
Monday, August 16, 2010
I have been thinking about you and me and everything with the family alot lately. All the things we use to do. The little trips we did as a family and you and I and the kids. They were fun. This summer was different. It will be me and the boys. weird huh. I am going to show the guys how us girls got things done. I am taking dad and the boys to the caves. Remember them. they were so much fun. I hope I don't get lost. You were the navigator and i was the driver. dad never could navigate much. should be interesting. thank god for GPS. You better be guiding me from above. I remember how much you loved the caves. I don't think you ever went to these ones. I will have to ask dad. Kyle is excited. He shares your love for them. Dad should be all moved in my thanksgiving. Hope you like things. Don't worry your memories and talents will be spread throughout all those that loved you. I will give everyone a piece of you. Im sure there is enough of your talent in the house to spred around. I sure wish you were her moving in too. We could have some fun. I miss you. Love you forever mom.
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Hi again posted a condolence
Sunday, August 15, 2010
I love you a lot and I wont stop loving you. Things are tough but we are doing okay. I am keeping everyone in line just like you would. Tim has taken up golf now. Danielle is starting. The boys are doing well now. We all Love you so much. Construction will start soon. It is still so surreal sometimes without you. I guess I took for granted how big your shoes were to fill. I feel the load now mom.. Holy crap, do you have oars somewhere to go with the boat you walked in. Ha ha. Love you so much. Miss you everyday. Thanks for all you did for me and how you raised me. Your awesome.
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hi there posted a condolence
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Just me thinking about you again. You have been on my mind so much lately. Dad will be moving in with me soon. I know changes are hard but life is full of changes and we all have to face them and deal with them huh. I hope I am doing the right thing but I told you I would do this for you and take care of him. I love you so much. I lost my best friend, hero and my world last year. Now I have it all in my heart forever.
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Hi there posted a condolence
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Just want you to know that I am thinking about you alot right now. these three months are real hard for me. I miss you so much right now. there is so much I wish I could share with you. I think the kids really miss you too right now. Stuff they want to share with you too. Funny how you were the glue of the family. Now it is me. You were my world and hero and best friend all in one. I love you and that will never change.
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hi posted a condolence
Sunday, August 1, 2010
your on my mind a lot lately. I really admire you these days and all that you did. You are amazing I don't know how you held it all together so well. Your my hero. I am honored to walk in your shadows. My dream is to grow to be what you were to so many and to us. Some say they don't know why loved ones left. I understand why you did. You were chosen for bigger and better things. You could do no more here. Your job was done. Mine has just begun. I hope I have your strength to do it. I love you forever.
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hi posted a condolence
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
thinking about you as usual. Miss you a lot. Love you always
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hey ma posted a condolence
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
You have really put a lot on my shoulder. Things are really tough here. I wish I could talk to you I wish I had your help right now. I am glad you directed an advisor my way so I have someone to turn to for advice. she does help me a lot. Thanks ma. Losing you is just so huge.
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Hey Mom posted a condolence
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Love you and miss you a lot these days. It is very lonely here without you to talk to. All I seem to have is one way conversations these days. It sucks. Stay close to dad Mom he needs you right now. I will get by, you know I always struggle through somehow. Miss you everyday.
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hi again posted a condolence
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
It is really hard here right now. Dee is gone now. I know you and Aunt Sharon were probably with her. It was bitter sweet being with the family again. Miss you aunt sharon and grandma and grandpa being there. I don't think we have been together since you all were alive. I bet you all enjoyed us being together though
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hi posted a condolence
Monday, July 12, 2010
couple hard days coming up huh. I will be thinking of you of course as i always do. This was a hard time for us last year. life took us by the seat of our pants huh. these were those really hard days for you that we are entering again. so many so sick around me now. it is weird. Miss you these days. But your better off than I. take care for me and say hi to all those with you and all that have left us here.
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Hi mom posted a condolence
Monday, July 5, 2010
Life is changing. Your boy is getting Married. I still cant believe it. I am glad you met her. Everything is turning around here and going great. We love you Mom very much you are always missed but we know we have to carry on so we are.
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hi posted a condolence
Saturday, June 26, 2010
things are going well. everyone is doing good now. we all love you and always will. you will never be forgotten but always missed. thanks for being a great mom while i had you. I will always love you and miss you. Danielle graduates monday. she misses you a lot.
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hey ma posted a condolence
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
just wanted to tell you I am still on the deans list at school. It has been tough but I am still doing it. Last year. Tell Grandma. i am finally doing something.
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Mom posted a condolence
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Hi
miss talking with you. been thinking about you. a lot lately. So much I would like to share with you. Thanks for giving me Someone to share it with.
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Hi mom posted a condolence
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Danielle has her eighth grade formal friday. You should see how beautiful she looks. She is getting so big. Stressful days ahead huh.
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mom posted a condolence
Saturday, May 22, 2010
I think I out drove you on the driving range today. I think Dad is worried I will do the same to him...lol Things are okay
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Mom posted a condolence
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
take care. Im glad you don't have pain weakness or suffering. Your quality of life is back where it should be. your missed and thought of daily
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hey ma posted a condolence
Monday, May 17, 2010
Make sure you near on Thursday. You will get a good laugh. Mutt and Jeff (Jeannie and I) will be golfing. I am sure it will be just like you and I out there. We did more goofing around than golfing. Jeannie and I are the same when we get together.Make sure Keith is watching too.
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mom posted a condolence
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Hi. kids need your support. let them know your near them. they seem to be struggling. I don't seem to reach them. I am doing great. Life is going well. Lots of plans ahead. wish you could see them unfold.
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mom posted a condolence
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
hi golf is going good. miss not playing golf with you.
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Hey mom posted a condolence
Saturday, May 8, 2010
I wish you could be here for another Mother's day. It doesn't feel the same without you. We all love you mom.
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hi mom posted a condolence
Sunday, May 2, 2010
happy mothers day early. Won't be writing that day. Sorry.
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hey ma posted a condolence
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
AnnaMae passed away.She was a great lady. Give her a hug for me. Mom I love you, Sorry if I did anything that you didn't like. I did what was in your best interest always.
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Jeannie posted a condolence
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
just wanted to let you know that you are miss and loved very much. lori is trying really hard to keep thing together and she is hurting i will stay near her and try to help her go though this awful time. you need to send her a sign and let her know your near her she really needs that. so shine her a star she will know its from you. tell keith i love him.
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Mom posted a condolence
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Hey hi mom. Dad had a nice birthday. we missed you.
J
JEANNIE posted a condolence
Thursday, April 22, 2010
HI CAROL I just want to say hello and let you know that you are love and miss. Lori is really having a bad time i will be there for you. please send her a sign to let her know you are near her and you are wating over her . i kmow you can so please do she need you.she is hurting and she needs one of your smile.
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hey ma posted a condolence
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Tomorrows dads birthday. let him know your thinking of him. love you and i do miss you everyday mom.
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Ma posted a condolence
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Just me thinking about you today. Miss you. love you . Garrett saw a cardinal today. Made me think of you. Celebrating dad's birthday soon. Let him know your near him. He misses you .
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Hi mom posted a condolence
Friday, April 16, 2010
missing you today. Thought about you a lot today.
Lost another friend today. He will be with you soon mom. Take care of him mom. Mike is a great guy.
H
Hey momma posted a condolence
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Your the greatest woman I know. I love you so much mom. Miss you everyday. still finding my path without you by my side. Don't worry I will be fine.
H
Hi Mom posted a condolence
Monday, April 12, 2010
Missed you today. Met with some struggles with Kyle. Stay close to him. Drop a dime on his head and wake him up. He will know it is you. lol... He loves you and needs you right now also. Thanks for your help through Jean. I love you mom. I will be there for Dad on his birthday next week. Don't worry. I promised.
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Ma posted a condolence
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Happy Anniversary Mom
50 years you guys made. That is so cool. I am so happy for you two. I love you both. I hope you enjoy your time together today. I will finish the day with Dad at dinner. You both mean the world to me. I love you mom and miss you everyday. Thanks for all you have given me in life. I was blessed to have you as my mother.
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Mom posted a condolence
Saturday, April 10, 2010
tomorrow is dad and your anniversary. I hope you like the flowers I ordered for you and dad. MAC and dad will be there tomorrow. I will be with dad for dinner. Mom, I will do my best to make your anniversary as good as possible for dad. I love you both so much.
Happy Anniversary Mom. Miss you so much and I love you forever
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hi mom posted a condolence
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Been thinking about you a lot today. Felt like talking to you on the phone like we use to. miss that. I had a lot of patient talking to me today about our relationship. It made me miss you so much. They all said how nice it was to hear how wonderful I talk about you. I got a lot of hugs but I longed to be with you today. Felt lonely, frustrated because I couldn't reach out to you.
Oh well, I love you "CJ" miss you so much today... love "LJ"
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Hi mom posted a condolence
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Love you and miss you. Dad told me today to stop mothering him and scott. I laughed, I told him sorry Dad that was a promise made to mom and I am not going to stop. I am who I am. He said I know you are you mothers daughter, she was just like you always caring for others no matter what the cost. I said yep, and I do the same. Mom I will always care for those two for you. I love dad and scott as much as I love you. I promised I would take over where you left off. My promise is my word, my word is forever.
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hi mom posted a condolence
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Today Danielle is 14. Cant believe. We went to see you at the cemetary. then spent the day together. We talked about how much we miss you and love you and how much you mean to us and how much a part of our life you are and mean to us. You don't realize how intwined a person is until the void is there. Your my mom but still you were my best friend too. That's like losing half of me. Now I am rebuilding myself along with the family. But we are making it slowly. We miss you and love you. We will support each other. I am going to see if Dad would like to have dinner together with me Sunday. Maybe we will eat mushrooms just for you. ha ha. I can hear you gag. Take care mom. Let Danielle know your near. She misses you.
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hi mom posted a condolence
Monday, April 5, 2010
I checked on Dad, he is doing good. I am doing good and so is Scott. Your Grandkids are getting so big. Tomorrow is Danielle's birthday. Can't believe she will be 14. We are going to stop by the cemetary she misses you too. You are so special to her. We all love and miss you mom. Rest in peace we are doing okay.
J
JEANNIE posted a condolence
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Happy Easter send Lori a sign she needs to know your near her you are missed i'll stay near her for you she my bff.
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Happy Easter Mom posted a condolence
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Easter went okay mom although we were not together. Scott was with Lara, Dad stayed home. I missed everyone. I made the best of it. It didn't feel like much of a holiday. They don't anymore. I see them as days of visits. Glad it is done. I saw a cardinal today. Your favorite. It made me smile to think of you. Love you Mom.
H
Hi mom posted a condolence
Saturday, April 3, 2010
tough day today. I am sad without you. It is another holiday and it is hitting hard as the last ones. I just dont like doing this without you. I know you don't like it when I am sad, but when you were you and I talked. Miss that mom a lot. I will be fine, you know that don't be sad to. One of us is enough. Stay close tomorrow, dad and I will need you. I love you so much mom and miss you daily. Today is sad, tomorrow may suck but there will always be another tomorrow to look upon for happier days. :-)
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mom posted a condolence
Friday, April 2, 2010
Hi mom happy easter.. another tough holiday. I wanted to have the holiday with just our family but it doesn't seem like the family is ready to celebrate without you yet. I tried but I met resistance. So I will take dad with me to Tom's house. Scott will be with Lara. It so sad without you mom. I really miss you. You were the glue that held this family together. Feels like the same thing that happened to Aunt Sharons is happening to ours at the holidays. Maybe it just hurts still to celebrate without you. We will get there. I will keep working at it for you. I know it is what you would want mom. I love you and miss you every day. Thanks for all you do.
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Hi Mom posted a condolence
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Easter is almost here. I just wanted to let you know. I am doing great. Things are going great now. I saw Aunt Diane, I think I helped her a lot. Scott seems to be doing well now so is Dad. You can rest now Mom your family is all okay now. We love you, We miss you everyday, but we are carrying on just fine. Danielle will be 14. Let her know your apart of her on her day. She misses you. Happy Easter Mom
H
Hey Mom posted a condolence
Monday, March 22, 2010
Just wanted to tell you. Today is a great day. All is good. Feeling awesome. Loving life today. Danielle bowled well. Kyle is doing great in golf. Hurdles with Garrett yet but there are not hurdle that I cant jump. I miss you here. I love you so much. Danielle will be 14 soon mom. She is so compassionate and wonderful. Just like you. Guess what she wants to do on her birthday. See you. She said she wants you to be a part of her birthday, so we are going to go visit you that day. I think we may spend the day together. mother daughter day, with you by our side. Take care CJ.
H
Hi Mom posted a condolence
Thursday, March 18, 2010
I took Jean over to meet dad tonight. She talked to him and helped explain some of what he is going through. She loved your dolls. And of course my art work. lol... She is a great help I think she can give him the insight from walking the road that I cant because I am not there yet to reflect back on. You are an amazing person. Love ya
H
Hi mom posted a condolence
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Spring is coming. All your flowers will be coming up. I will have work to do teaching dad how to garden. He says he wants to keep it pretty for you. Better, I worked hard on your yard. Looks good and mine looks like shit. lol ... Cant believe still that you not really hear. Its gonna be okay. I don't want you not resting because of us. This is normal and we will get over it but never you. Kyle is struggling I think he may drop out. Garrett is Garrett he's trying hard but his anger still gets in the way. Danielle she still shines through. The little ass kisser that she is huh. She is going to play try out for softball. hope she doesn't play like you and it did. remember catch and throw left hand. We really sucked huh. Well I have to go I have my nightly chores and then sleep to get to. love you and miss you mom. remember no worries. I am always fine. always. I'm strong within myself and thats what matters.
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Hey mom posted a condolence
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Having a good day today. you can rest in peace. I do love you and I will miss you and i will always think of you and have some tough days without you. but I will watch over everyone as I promised and you do not need to worry. It is your time to rest now. please rest mom. I love you always and forever.
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hey posted a condolence
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Just thinking about you today. Wanted you to know I had a great day today. I was wicked busy, you know I love that. Had all the wacky patience that I love to harrass and be crazy and goofy with. It really felt good. Had a good meeting too. I am back in school I am going to try not to take anymore breaks. Doc gave me some antibiotics so I should be back to as normal as possible for me. ha ha. I feel like I am on my way back up the roller coaster hill. funny I hope the hill never ends. it feels good right now. Saw jeannie today. She does look good. I think knowing she is retiring is doing her good. She still a Brat though. lol Have a great night mom... I love you so much. even though you never could say that to me it is okay. I know you would say if i didn't love you I wouldn't be here. You had to be there, I would have followed you if you weren't. And who would have taken care of you when you needed it. So there. I love you and I miss you tremendously but don't worry I will be okay. I will it just takes time to get use to being without a mom and not having you to bug everyday or go to or visit when i feel alone or hang with. it just takes time. I wish it were a quick fix but you were too good of a mom. Maybe you should have been more of an asshole. ha ha. .. nah just kidding. you are one of the best. easy to brag about. and always fun to be with.
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Hey posted a condolence
Monday, March 8, 2010
Been thinking of you all day today. Dad needs you. Let him know your near him. He loves you so much. I wish I could take away his pain mom. This is bigger than I can handle. I am trying though. I need your help. I love Dad so much I hate to see his pain for you, I have never seen that before in dad. It is hard to see let alone deal with. Help me mom. Love you and miss you so much mom. Your the center to our universe always.
J
Jeannie posted a condolence
Sunday, March 7, 2010
I know i didn't get to know you but Lori is one of my bffs. she is real sad and she needs her mom to let her know that your near her. you are miss. i'll do my best to help Lori.send her one of your smiles.
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hi posted a condolence
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Miss ya mom. So many things remind me of you. I love you. I hope your okay. Life just isn't the same here without you.
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hi posted a condolence
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Weird stuff happening down here mom. Many things are changing. You would be blown away. I am amazed mom. in awe of Dad. He is such a new man. I hope you don't mind I am making a quilt out of your sweatshirts. I love you mom. miss you forever.Your always on my mind. I will never forget you
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hi mom posted a condolence
Monday, March 1, 2010
okay today I went home and took all your sweatshirts. Wow women you really had a sweatshirt fettish. I am going to make a quilt out of them. I think I can get one for Scott and one for me. I hope. You have some pretty funny ones that will be nice in it. I am going to try a new place tomorrow with Jeannie a little bigger. She gives me a lot of support mom. She is living up to her promise to you so is MAC. She checks on me all the time too. You new who to pick didn't you. I still miss you. we still need you here. I think Your putting the kibash on the van deal aren't you. Brat!!! I figured you would get the last word you always do. Remember who is the warden I rule!!! I love you so much mom. Your the center of my universe
L
Lor posted a condolence
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Hey Hope your ok. Life really sucks here. Loosing grip on reality or it feels like it. Miss you. Sure could use you down here. I know we still need you some days. Some of us are having more trouble then others depending on the day. You know I am sensative and seems like others are taking advantage of that sensativity lately. I am still helping the world carrying they weight of the world on my shoulders but it is becoming more than I can bear. I miss your humor and sarcasm. your one of a kind mom. always loved and treasured. forever missed more and more each day. Love you eternally mom.
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hi posted a condolence
Thursday, February 25, 2010
just think about you. had a good day today wanted you to know. Everything was even keel for a change. Still can connect though dont think its time maybe. wish I could. Jeannie keeps encouraging me to try. I do but there is to much interference. perhaps it is that aunt whitie syndrome you always say I have. Nervous nelly. rush rush rush to get everything done and in order or don't bother. Jeannie is trying to slow me down. maybe you should tell her how many years you tried to do that. ha ha. as dad said he was a work in progress. I guess I am too mom. Dad is a different man now you would be proud, I know I am. Now I need the work done. I thought I was pretty set but I see different now. I had a talk with Garrett tonight. He didn't like it but I think he was honest with me and i think everything is okay. I will keep an eye on him though. Danielle is having trouble now to. Kyle seems to be doing okay for kyle. stay near them. You know I always needed your imput with them. I think grandpa had a talk with danielle this morning after I was done with her. not sure. They still need you so stay close and help me with them. I still need your help with them. Your advise. Love you and miss you eternally
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hey posted a condolence
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
I did something tonight unlike me. I went to a group meeting mom. It seems like a good thing mom. Not sure but we will see. Jeannie went with me to offer me some support. she is really amazing. you would like her, you would have been two crazy chicks together though. I would have to separate you two. lol. she is as nuts as you mom. take care. i love you mom more everyday. dad misses you alot mom so does scott. You were are world the center to our universe. without you we are spinning out of control. I will get us back somehow mom somehow.
H
Hi mom posted a condolence
Monday, February 22, 2010
Just wanted to say hi, tell you I was thinking about you. Danielle is turning into quite the bowler. She was in the 150's. She keeps it up and she will give you a run for your money. She is so sweet. Things are really changing around here mom. You taught us so much. You would be so proud of dad he has really changed. It's awesome. He loves you mom. stay close to him for your anniversary and his birthday. I will do what I can for you. Scott is hanging in there. He misses you too. Lara is staying by his side. They are great together, dad says they remind him of you and dad when you guys were young. Thats sweet.
Take care mom. I love you.
H
Hey ma posted a condolence
Friday, February 19, 2010
Found some letters you wrote today to Pat and your Journal. Wow. Dad found out that you knew about your cancer when you went on vacation. Then he found out that you knew about the spread to the lungs when you went to vegas and didn't tell him. Now he knows why you couldn't play golf. He was mad at you. I talked with him mom. I told him you were about getting done what made you happy while you still could before you died. You went fast. You knew you didn't have long to life. I think he understands mom. Help him to understand stay close to him. comfort him. He loves you so much and he is so sad without you. I am doing what I can for you mom. You know I will always do what I can here for you. I love you very much. It is hard here. very hard.
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hi posted a condolence
Thursday, February 18, 2010
cant sleep.too much on my mind. miss ya. love ya. miss our saturday mornings together. Now I spend them with Dad at the bowling alley danielle bowled a 161 game last week. I think she is trying to beat me. I bowled with your team. bet you got a good laugh that night huh watching all of us bowl. I am pretty sure I might golf in Donna Pratt's league this summer, maybe with Jeannie. I asked her. Your laughing again aren't you. Keep laughing I may try your left handed clubs. ha ha. Now that will be funny. completely backwards worse than I already am. Dad misses you. He is going to have trouble April 11th on your anniversary stay close to him and help him. I will do what I can too. We love you mom. Still cant believe your not here. We are donating your van to the mother house so that Sr. Margaret Mary can drive the Sisters around in it to doctor apts and stuff. Hope you don't mind. I know you love that van. Remember mom, material things don't really matter in life, pass it on so it can help others in need. I hope you don't mind.
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lori posted a condolence
Sunday, February 14, 2010
happy valentines day mom... Thinking about you a lot these days. It's just not the same here anymore. schools on hold for a little bit. I fell apart bad. I knew I needed to give something a break. That's the only thing I can give a break to without affecting anyone else. I will start back again soon. I am loosing it. My plate has finally overflowed and broke. too much being pulled I lost sight of myself. Wish you were here Mom. I miss you so much. love you
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Hey mom posted a condolence
Friday, February 12, 2010
Boy today sucked almost worse than yesterday. I fell apart bad yesterday and was still under the effects of it today. I didn't really talk much at work. Not much to say. It has been really tough there. I dont understand why people are mean when someone is going through hard times. Its like they get impatient. Whatever, I dont own it mom. I will just pray for them that they can resolve their issues. I don't like working with all women. not fun. anyway jeannie came over and gave me a hug. she is pretty amazing. It was like you sent out an SOS because I got a hug from her then a text from jill and one from MAC asking how I was and all saying they new I was not ok. It was like you sent them my way to protect me or something. Thanks if thats what you do. Jeannies hug was perfect timing. I was feeling very lonely at that moment. Tonight is going to be hard. hope you like the roses i bought you for your birthday. love you forever. you will never be forgotten and a void will always be carried. Every mother and child I see will always bring a tear to my eye as I remember our times together that can not be anymore. your awesome. give me some bowling pointers tonight. keep my head out of my ass tonight mom. :-)
M
Mom posted a condolence
Thursday, February 11, 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY. SORRY Mom i STOPPED going to SCHOOL FOR NOW.I had to there were no other options. WISH WE COULD CELEBRATE.your birthday together. DAD WENT TO THE CASINO FOR YOU. BUT YOU WEREN'T THERE AND HE LOST. EVERYONE LEFT THE HOUSE TONIGHT. i AM ALONE. NOT SURE IF THat IS A GOOD THING. YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS when i am in this frame of mind. I will try to be strong and behave. I am such a mess right now inside. happy birthday wish we could share it together. hope you like your roses i bought you. give me strentgh tomorrow . I am afraid. The love we carry for you is so painful these days without you. its like empty love.
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hi mom posted a condolence
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Almost your birthday. 70 years old. I can't believe it. you always looked so young. I listened to a song with danielle. Here comes the night by rob thomas. we both thought of you with that song. As I listen to it all I could think of was you lying in that bed the night you died. Seeing everyone crying and knowing I could not because I had to hold on for you and the family. Inside, I was screaming. It felt so helpless. But I had to for you. It was always all about you. Even after you passed I stayed by your side. I couldn't leave you lie there alone. just like the song says. Weird.
Miss you so much. Talked with dad tonight. He is going to the cemetary tomorrow for your birthday. I am going to buy you a dozen roses like I always did(your favorite)they will be on my table for you to enjoy. Sorry no cemetary for me. Cant go there yet. Friday, I told Dad I didn't know if I would be able to handle bowling for you. He reminded me how big you will be smiling and telling me (TO GET MY HEAD OUT OF MY ASS AND BOWL) ha ha your favorite line. Tim, ray, scott, lara, dad and I will all be bowling together. We all hope we don't have to speak at a microphone. I know Ray will be busting my chops all night so hopefully that will help. A few friends have told me they will be there to support me and help me through it.
Work sucks. I am having some trouble with someone there. I don't know why she is being so mean to me. It always seem when the chips are down and life is at its worse people suck. I really hate working with women. they are so hormonal sometimes. I am just keeping to myself and counting the months. praying she gets over whatever the issues are that she is having cuz I do not own them. WHATEVER!!!!. I am stronger that them right mom. Home is still tricky. have not figured out what to do or whether to do anything about Garrett. Still struggling over that. Your suppose to be helping out Speak louder...Lol... I just need down time to ponder I guess. dont get much of that lately. I promised you I would take over where you left off caring for your family being the mom. I am. Your job sure wasn't easy mom lol you have high maintenence men. lol But I love them... I will try to write tomorrow. I is gonna be a rough day. Not sure how I will be. miss you love you always. The void doesn't get smaller for you. you will always be a big part of my life and never forgotten.
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lori posted a condolence
Monday, February 8, 2010
Hi thinking about you. Wow works crazy. Jeannies retiring April 1st. It is going to be so weird without her around there after all these years. She always had my back never a worry there. gary will to though. Mom I miss telling you about my day after work. I don't have anyone to do that to anymore. It sucks. You always waited for my stories and looked forward to them. you knew the people I worked with like you were right there with me. I bet you liked jeannie too. Anyway, worried about Garrett mom not sure what to do. Address him or just wait it out. Need your help mom... Thursdays your birthday, Friday I bowl in your honor. Tough days ahead. And yes, my concentration has gone cafooie as it usually does when I am stressed. I never realized just how much a part of me you were till you were gone. Now your gone and I am so F*^*$% up. But I still love you and that shall never change. The void I carry will always remain.
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lori posted a condolence
Saturday, February 6, 2010
One of those days where I just can't focus on my homework. Next week is the tournament for you. I'm worried about it. Funny I wonder if it will flood messages to you here. hope not. Miss you Love you Wish you were here with me still so I wouldn't feel so empty. It is so hard seeing families together having fun. I told Tim I thought it was time to stop having family gatherings with his family. Lol you know him. That went over like a big wet fart in church mom. lol. I am just not into the family thing when I don't have my family anymore. what's the point. stay close, help me through these hard times I really need you right now. I got difficult roads ahead. Next thursday and Friday will be living hell if I make it.
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lori posted a condolence
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Mom you would be proud of how well danielle is bowling. she is really doing well. wish you could be here to enjoy it. your missing so much. yesterday sucked rocks. I was in a bad frame of mind. Jeannie helped change my thoughts just talking with me. Glad I go here to turn to, it helps now that I cant turn to you. It's hard not having a mom anymore. I try to muddle through it on my own but sometimes I just need to hear a voice other than my own. I have so much shit going on cant catch a break lately. Work sucks, home is closing in, sensative issues with one of the kids. Not sure what to do. could use some input mom. Worried. I have to be real careful this time mom. Stay close please mom. I really need you right now. love you
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lori posted a condolence
Friday, February 5, 2010
love ya miss you hate not having you anymore. see soon I hope
L
Lori posted a condolence
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Mom I am struggling with some stuff with one of the kids. I am not sure what to do where to turn how to handle it. I wish you were here you were a great sounding board and someone I could talk to and trust the sensativity of situations. I just don't know where to turn now. Stay close. I can only hope and pray with this. I love you and miss you every day. there is such a void in my life now. Someone asked me at work today what it is about you that I make me miss you and why I cant get past this yet. I wanted to smack them. How dare they. I told them there is no thing. It is just life. I told them I just go through the monotony of live like they do only with emptiness. I don't know if they were trying to understand or being mean but not the day for it.
H
Hi mom posted a condolence
Thursday, February 4, 2010
I was real musha musha today. kept crying today at work. I think it was a combination of your birthday coming up. the big 70 and this bowling tournament for you. I don't think I can mustard up the cahonas to get myself together to get there. Also, I knew my friend Jeannie was struggling today. It was just a bust of a day all around. just suckie. I was worried about her to. I know you watched over her for me. Thanks for that you always had my back. Gonna need you next week to get me through it. stay with me. Thursday and Friday with be real hard. Funny MAC and Jill text me to see if I was okay. Was that your doing. They doth said they knew I wasn't ok. Mom there is so much shit going on right now. I feel like I cant catch a break. I am struggling with focusing on school with all the other shit. help me through it. so I can focus. Help me filter through it.
H
Hi Mom posted a condolence
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
You know this year was suppose to be the year I got to be the biggest pain in your ASS. Why did you have to leave before that. You were turning 70 this year. I was suppose to throw the big surprise party like I did for Dad. Remember that, we really pissed him off didn't we. he doesn't like to be surprised. who would have thought. I was gonna get you strippers and everything. Think they will allow that at the cematary. lol. Maybe I will just get you a dirty magazine. ha ha. seriously. wish I could have celebrated it with you. It would have been a blast. I know you would have really gotten into it huh. It is going to be a tough day but I will still buy you the dozen roses I get you every year. This year you will have to look at them on my table. Friday will be hard to because I have to bowl in your memory. I don't know If I will even be able to walk into the bowling alley mom. I don't know how I am gonna do it let alone wear a shirt with your name on it. making me cry just writing about it. I will try to remember you telling us to get our heads out of our asses and bowl to keep me smiling but i don't know if it will work. can you believe I pulled the tendons in my arm bowling. told you that sport sucks rock. bad for the body mom. ha ha. you better give me strength thursday and friday or I may not make it.
H
Hi Mom posted a condolence
Monday, February 1, 2010
Thanks Mom you must have helped me focus through my struggles tonight. It was real tuff. But I think I did the right thing. Time will tell. Wish I could turn to you for real. You could really set things straight for me. There is a lot of stuff going on, I am trying not to own it all. Something new huh. LOL. Danielle sent me a picture of you when you were young the other day. She told me you will always be forever beautiful. She is so sweet. She is becoming a compassionate person just like you. I see more and more of you in her everyday. It is comforting and beautiful. Wish you could enjoy it. Her teacher just lost someone and she is reaching out to her and told her she knows what she is going through. She brought tears to my eyes. Love you Mom. Miss you. Say Hi to Grandma/Grandpa/Aunt Sharon.
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hi mom posted a condolence
Monday, February 1, 2010
Just thinking about you again. Miss you. Having focus issues. Cant get you off my mind tonight. Wish I could talk to you about some stuff that I need to get out.
J
JEANNIE posted a condolence
Sunday, January 31, 2010
YOU CAN REST IN PEACE BECAUSE I WILL ALWAYS KEEP MY EYE ON LORI. SHE REALLY MISSES YOU. SO STAY NEAR HER AND LET HER KNOW YOUR THERE WITH HER AND THAT YOUR OK. YOU ARE LOVED AND MISSED.
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lor posted a condolence
Thursday, January 28, 2010
love you mom. i will forever carry a void for you. Whenever I see a mother and daughter together I think of us. Rest in peace Mom. It is so weird being her without a mother and no one to turn to anymore. I guess that is Gods way of telling me to grow up and stand on my own. Love you miss you always.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
hi miss you. love you. hate that your not here when I need you. It's not fair.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Hey mom
Just a quick little note to let you know I am back from my R&R time away. I did a lot of thinking. Little more playing than thinking but that's me. lol I feel as though I am back to not taking life serious. I also feel like I figured out who I am as a motherless daughter. I don't feel as lost not say that I do not miss you immensely. The loss of a relationship as close as ours was truly changes a person mom. But I think I found a piece of who I loss. Through the help of some key people sorting me out, (if that is possible). Donna looks great, we had a good time. She misses me a lot. Uncle Desi and Aunt Geri look great too. Boy, I picked a great group to be with they are all nutty (lol) Just what I needed. Back to work tomorrow. It will be an awesome day mom. No Pain..... Take care I love you talk soon. School starts up again on Tuesday. Math, stay close mom you know my math skills suck... I am really gonna need your help bad. I can't wait till this is over. I am already planning my next trip away. I promised myself that I would do a vacation with family and one for me. Time that I will take just for me either alone or with friends. I figure if it is a promise I won't break it, unless of course someone needs my care. That always comes first.
H
Hi mom posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
doing a bit better today. jeannie helped me sort some things out. shes pretty good at this stuff and shes a great person. you would have enjoyed her but you two would have gotten in too much trouble together. I wouldn't have stood a chance against you two. anyway, I feel pretty good. getting some r&r soon so I will be back to my pain in the ass self that you know and love. Back to my games and antics I play with everyone. Ha Jeannie gets the brunt of it. But I try to share the wealth with everyone. You know me. I love to make people smile. I just wanted to tell you that I am doing better. you told me to reach out to her, I listen to you. Love you forever mom
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lori posted a condolence
Sunday, January 10, 2010
dad is doing better. I left. I couldn't focus. I am having a tuff day. too many mom memories around me. Even church was tuff. Cried like an idiot through the whole thing sitting there by myself. Felt stupid. Couldn't wait to get out of there. Todays a day I just want to run from. I don't know what hit me. I hear you ..... SNAP OUT OF IT AND GET OVER IT. I am trying
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lori posted a condolence
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Checked on Dad for you today mom. He hasn't felt well. I am staying with him today doing my paper. Told you I would do your job for you after you were gone. I promised I would pick up where you left off holding this family together for you. Never realize how much work it was. You should have warned me. Maybe I would have changed my mind. lol. They are high maintenance. Not me of course. I was always the easy one. Anyways. I am just hanging here today struggling with my term paper and migraine and keeping an eye on dad for you. I love you mom. You were so cool. Hope you like your poem.
A
A Poem for Mom posted a condolence
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Someday
Your path has ended there are no more forks in the road.
Someday our paths will cross.
Chosen without knowing, someday we will meet again.
Although you are no longer here and I am someday,
I will leave here and meet with you again someday.
Someday, Mom I will walk again beside you someday.
Someday, I will be with you and we will never part again you will have you daughter back again someday.
I am not sure when but someday we can be together again someday.
For now, I will just wait, I get older day by day; you will stay the same.
Someday we will be the same when we are together someday.
Mother and Daughter best of friends, same of age together again forever someday.
L
LORI posted a condolence
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Hi mom
happy new years.
I was gonna come see you but I have been sick. maybe next weekend I will try. It is hard for me to go there alone but I will try it again. i miss you. I am glad the holidays are over.feels like a weight lifted off. schools started back again. It's okay this is my last year, I wish you could have seen me graduate but it wasn't meant to be.atleast you knew i went huh. danielle bowled real good yesterday. sorry no sleep today. too many worries on the plate. you know me carry the world on my shoulders. its funny, im so tired but i closed my eyes and my mind is like yours. i start doing a million thing. i laugh because i remember in the mornings you saying doesnt my house look great. i cleaned all night. and i would look at you like you were nuts. then you would tell me that you couldn't sleep so you would clean all night in your mind but when you woke up it looked the same and we would both just sit there and laugh. thats all i could think about tonight will i couldn't sleep. maybe i should clean like mom use to. but it sounded too much like double the work. ha ha. your nuts mom. love ya like crazy and miss are nutty laughing moments about stupid shit. you were one of a kind that is for sure. glad you were mine. glad I got the opportunity to tell you before you left just how great you were to me and how much you meant to me. glad you heard me tell you that you were my hero mom. I know that you left me knowing that you were my world and that you were really loved deeply by me. I wouldn't want you to leave me without knowing that first. we had great times together you and i even in the end. they were some of the best ones
L
Lori posted a condolence
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Hi Mom,
Talked to Dad last night. He told me I need to stop worrying about you that you are fine. I know that mom. It's not an empty. Even dad talking made me cry. He bought me a pair of boots that I wanted but wouldn't buy. You know how I am at christmas. won't let anyone buy me anything. He also wrote me a letter from you and him. Sorry mom cant write no more....gotta go too much for me today it hurts. bye
L
Lori posted a condolence
Monday, December 28, 2009
Hey Mom. Went to see Vince today. He looked good. He is with you now. Another one gone. Wierd, I guess they would rather be with you than down here with us. You always did draw attention and a following everywhere you went. Just don't get kicked out like you did hotels. LOL... I wish you were here. I miss you. I started to do okay then wham! along came the holiday and messed me back up. I am back a ground zero again. ten steps forward twenty back. I am going to try to come see you this weekend. I don't know if I can handle it or not. Maybe friday since I don't have to work. I will come and give you a new years cheer. lol. Maybe with a little alcohol I will be able to handle being at the cemetary. I don't know. I haven't been able to do that part. I will try on friday. Tim wanted to go over to his familys I said no. Can't handle it anymore. Just going to stay home. Love you Mom
L
Lori posted a condolence
Monday, December 28, 2009
Mom.
I can't focus today. I just want to go away. Or go sit a Tinker and think. My mind is such a mess still from the holidays. Man, christmas sucks without meaning. Love you so much. My Hero forever. Wish I were 1/4 the women you were. You touch so many with love. Your were great mom truly great.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Monday, December 28, 2009
Well Mom it is finally over. Next to your death that was the worse hell I walked through. I did not do well with that holiday. The mask I wore for others to see I guess I should not have bought at the dollar store because it didn't hold up. Everyone saw right through me. Remember how I use to hold it all in and no one new what was going on. Not the case mom. It was Painful and the pain tore like thorns thru the mask. The kids enjoyed their gifts. It was a bit somber for everyone. Not the same with out our spirited one there. All your receipts turned out great. I think you were the one making them through me. lol. you know how I cook. Leave stuff out all the time. rush rush rush just like aunt whitie. I am glad it is over. now I need to recover again. I see Jeannie talk to you again. Shes cool Mom. She gets all the harrassing I use to give you. Ha Ha funny I am a smartass to her too. I don't understand why you both call me that. Must be a pack you have against me. lol... You remember her daughter from Freddy's. I hope this gets easier soon. I think I am doing the right things just doesn't feel as though it is going in the right places. I keep finding my direction toward others not me. I still don't know how to take care of me. Never learned that part mom. Someday when I am old...I will have no choice then huh. I miss you. Your my hero mom and my world. always. Love your daughter.
J
JEANNIE posted a condolence
Sunday, December 27, 2009
SORRY I NEVER GOT TO KNOW YOU BUT I KNOW LORI AND SHE PRETTY COOL A LITTLE BIT OF A SMART ASS HAHA AT LEAST THAT WHAT I TELL HER. SHE REALLY MISSES YOU. AND SHE GOING THOUGH A HARD TIME SO STAY NEAR HER AND LET HER KNOW YOUR THERE. I WILL KEEP MY EYE ON HER TOO. YOU ARE LOVED AND MISSED
J
Jeannie posted a condolence
Thursday, December 24, 2009
merry christmas. lori is having a hard time so watch over her and let her know your near. i will too you are missed.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Merry Christmas Mom.
Your the Angel on the tree. This is your favorite day of the year. Hard as it was I did for you what needed to be done. I will miss you mom. Just thinking of you brings tears to my eyes today. I wish I didn't have to do this day without you. I Love you Mom. I need you.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Monday, December 21, 2009
Hi Mom
I see jeannie said hi. She is pretty cool huh.
I miss you mom. This is the toughest part ever. Funny I went from loving this holiday as a child to enjoying it as an adult with the kids to just plain hating this holiday. I cant tell you how much I wish I could just run away and hide from it. It is bringing out anger in me that I don't usually feel. I am only happy when I don't think about it or be around anyone. I know it's not like me. You got the better end of the stick Mom. It sucks here lately, I keep getting hurt too. So many incensative people around. I really need you now. Wish you were still near by...Poem from school for you mom. Just a little one...
So many lost souls searching yet never finding what they are looking for. then the search is over and the lost souls search finally ends. Wondering just when the search will end and this soul will rest. Or will it ever rest for now it is so restless wondering searching for the soul that is lost. Where has the one that is lost gone, why can she be felt or heard. Am I not listening, perhaps or is it that I am afraid of what I may find. Maybe just maybe I may find this lost soul in the very place I look for you. In death were thou does lie, the place I shall also rest with you never lost again but finally found.
see Mom school is teaching me poetry. Hope you liked it. I love you more than words can describe. I have been crippled by your death.
J
JEANNIE posted a condolence
Sunday, December 20, 2009
JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW I WILL TRY TO HELP LORI SHE HAVING A HARD TIME. SHE REALLY MISSES YOU. SHE GAVE ME YOUR LITTLE TREE I LOVE IT AND I WILL TAKE GOOD CARE OF IT. LORI NEEDS YOU TO SEND HER A SIGN NOW AND THEM SO SHE KNOWS YOUR NEAR HER SO DO THAT FOR HER FOR CHRISTMAS. SHE A VERY SEPICAL. HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS. KEEP KEITH OUT OF TROUBLE. LOL
L
Lori posted a condolence
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Hi Mom.
I miss you. This is hard right now. Christmas is so close. It is so painful without you here. It's a real struggle. I never realize just how hard this was going to be. Wish you could be hereI am gonna go out with Aunt Diane tomorrow for lunch. It should be nice, haven't seen her since the funeral. She is having a hard time too Mom. I love you and miss you everyday.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Hi mom. Just want you to know that I love you and miss you. I wish you were still here. I had sewing questions today and you know my math. I didn't had anywhere to turn. everyday I see another thing you use to do for me. I miss you so much.You were my world mom. It feels like I loss half of me. Scott is doing very well now. Things are going good for him. I am so proud of him. I am dog sitting again. Work is still a thorn in my side. Hoping to get out soon. Kids are all well. Kyle is working again and has a girlfriend. Thanks for all the great years you gave me mom. I would be nothing without you. You and I had great times together. I will never forget them mom or you. I will love you forever. I am going out to lunch with Aunt Diane friday. I am glad I miss her. It was nice seeing her everyday. I really miss you and really have trouble without you.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Hi Mom,
You are on my mind again today. I logged on to write to you and saw that Don Shirtz passed away. He is with you now Mom. Seems like more and more of us are joining you. I'm getting tired of funerals. Sorry I am having trouble with the holidays. I know you wouldn't like it but i cant go through with it.
H
Hi mom posted a condolence
Monday, December 7, 2009
Cant sleep so I thought I would write you. I just finished a term paper Yuck! Miss you. I hate this Mom. It isn't fair, these holidays are coming so fast and I don't want to do a think. I hate them. Kristen asked what she could do to help. I just said take them away. Ha Ha. Everyone tells me it will get easier. Not sure when. School is getting hard to stay with. More of a pain than it is worth. Love you. Night Mom, ...I , nevermind mom it doesn't matter.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Monday, December 7, 2009
Hi Mom,
We went to Danielle's christmas concert tonight. They sang very well tonight. You would have loved the songs they sang. I missed sitting with you. She even signed to one of the songs. You would have been so proud of her. Her bowling is getting better. She is starting to hook the ball. I love you Mom. Stay close and help me with the stuff I am going through. Wish you could let me know you are near. Your my hero, confidant, best friend, my world mom.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Hey mom, Just want you to know I am thinking of you and I love you always. Dad went to see you today and Scott is making Spezles for all of us today. I dropped of the mixer to him. Guess this is a Carol day for them. Feel bad cuz they are celebrating you and I am sitting here doing nothing. I did however go sit in your room today and talk to you. Very sad mom. I tried to quilt. Screwed that up. Trying to do homework cant focus. I feel like just running away from it all. What's the point anyway. Today is just not my day is it. I miss you mom everyday. Not a day or moment goes by that I don't think about you and wonder what it feels like for you now. Wish I could talk to you.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Hi mom
I am having such a hard time this weekend. I dont know why this has to be so hard. You may have drawn the shorter stick but I think it was the better stick. Some days I wonder why it had to be you. I know I am honored that God took you out of all us here that he could choose from. He got the best. Your still my hero, friend, and my world. It's hard to move forward without my go to girl. Somedays the pain is more than to worth. Sorry Mom maybe it is just all the funerals. I don't know. I couldn't even go to church today.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Friday, December 4, 2009
Hi Mom,
Today turned out to be a beautiful day. Great news. Thanks again for sending Jeannie to be with me, she sure made what could have been horrible just great. She's awesome. Tonight I went to Ginny Lippman's funeral. She is with you now. Saw Uncle Ken and Aunt Bev, Judi and Chuck and several other Keyes family. Aunt Bev and Uncle Ken want me to keep in touch and visit. They are trying to keep an eye on us. Dad couldn't go, he is having a tough time. Let him know your near him Mom. He misses and loves you so. I told Ken and Bev that is sucks here and you got the better end of the stick. Your with the Lord and we are left here to suffer with pain. Say hi to grandma/grandpa/aunt sharon/ aunt dorothy. hell say hi to all of heaven cuz there is more up there than down here. Love you mom. Ps. the sunrise this morning was beautiful wish you could have seen it today.
l
lori posted a condolence
Thursday, December 3, 2009
mom this place really sucks with out your lively spirit and smiles. you always lighten any room. now it just feels so lonely and dark. I cry everytime i think or talk about you. Kyle needs so much help. I don't know how to reach him. really could use your help. Garrett and Danielle are doing great. As I said a few hours ago. I will need help tomorrow and next week. thanks for sending jeannie my way. You picked the perfect person. You would have like her mom. anyway, I know you will be there through her. good night mom, i will try to get some sleep. cant do that much lately. holidays are so hard without you by my side. So are my trials that I must face. Most of the time I don't know if I am coming or going. You know how I am cramming too much into my life and nothings left for me. Don't know how to change that. I am going away soon. Hope it helps I just need to get my head back on straight. Sort out life if that is possible. sometimes I think you got the better break and wish I were there instead.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Hey Mom.
Hope your by my side tomorrow. I sure could use you there. It will be nerve racking. Thanks for sending Jeannie my way. Im sure you will be there through her. I will be thinking of you tomorrow not that I don't everyday. But...well you know it will be different. Your were the best thing in my life Mom. My world and my hero and friend. I sure miss our talks and shopping days. I used to look forward to Saturdays, I new it was a day to be spent with you. You were never a burden to me, but always a pleasure. Love you so much Mom.
H
Hey Mom posted a condolence
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
I know you know just how much all this is affecting me inside. You thought I was tough a hard nose medical person. I not when it comes to you. There is so much about you I miss and wish I could get back.I am fighting hard to get past all of it. I am glad your in a better place. Somedays I wish it were me but I know it is not my time.
J
JEANNIE posted a condolence
Monday, November 30, 2009
HI CAROL I NEVER GOT TO MEET YOU BUT I KNOW YOU ARE LOVED BY ALOT OF PEOPLE. LORI MUST BE JUST LIKE YOU TOO SHE A VERY SWEET CAREING AND STRONG PERSON SHE MUST HAVE GOTTEN THAT FOR YOU. AS I TOLD YOU BEFORE I WILL KEEP MY EYE ON HER SO I CAN HELP HER GO THOUGH THIS AWFUL SADEST OF LOSING YOU. SHE NEED YOU TO STAY NEAR HER. YOUR FAMILY LOVES YOU AND MISSES YOU SAY HELLO TO KEITH FOR ME I KNOW YOU WILL LIKE HIM GOD BLESS YOU
H
Hey Mom posted a condolence
Sunday, November 29, 2009
It sure has been a rough couple of days here. Miss you. Kids have been talking to me trying to help me get out of this funk. They remind me that you would do what they are if you were here. They really have grown up. Thanks for all your help with them. Anyway, I love you and miss you. I will need you near me this week, it is going to be tough. I am worried, but I will be the trouper you expect me to be. Rest Mom and say hi to everyone for me.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Hi Mom, Happy Thanksgiving. I took dad with me to Tim's brothers. He ate too much and was stuffed. ha ha. It wasn't the same without you Mom, these are your days the ones you love. I tried to stay happy for you but inside it just wasn't there. I still can't believe its over. The food was good. You missed Tim's bear meat stuffing. It was awesome. Dad loved it too. Of course we didn't tell anyone like we use to do to you. everyone ate it and had seconds. ha ha. I wish you were there, it would have been more fun with you to laugh with. Oh well. I love you Mom. Right now there is so much going on in my life and I could really use your advise. Life is pretty complicated right now here. Your grandkids are doing great. Danielle is a real trouper mom you would be proud of all of them. I miss you and love you. Say hi to grandma, grandpa, and aunt sharon for me. I talk to Kristen more now. She is doing good. Bye. I will try to right more but school is killing me right now.These are hard times without you by my side. I will miss our saturday christmas shopping. Now I have to do it alone. Sucks mom. :-)
J
JEANNIE posted a condolence
Thursday, November 26, 2009
HAPPY THANKSGIVING I KNOW YOUR MISSAND LOVED VERY MUCH. LORI IS TRYING REAL HARD AND SHE IS REALLY MISSING YOU I'M GOING TO KEEP MY EYE ON HER SO DON'T WORRY. I KNOW YOU ARE VERY PROUD OF HER JUST STAY NEAR HER SHE WILL ALWAYS NEED YOU.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Hey Mom, Another week gone. I can't believe you have been gone from us a month now. I miss you but I am glad your in a better place. I still have some difficult days. Thanks for those you sent to watch over me. They are doing their job. I am struggling with a few things I sure where you are you know what they are. Please help me through them. I wish I could talk with you the way we use to. I miss that also, our daily talks. I love you Mom!! I don't know what else to say. It is still hard for me.
B
Bob O posted a condolence
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Carol,
I was so very sorry to hear of your passing and my heart goes out to Dick, Lori and the rest of your family. I always looked forward to receiving an email from you, because you were so full of life and had such a positive outlook! You and Pat were such great friends and enjoyed the same things in life. I didn't know you well but I felt close to you because of you friendship with Pat and you will forever be in my heart.I always enjoyed when you and Pat were bowling or crafting! You were such good friends and both of you had such positive attitudes. Now you are once again together along with Kim. Kim always said that crafting missed her generation but she has two good teachers to help her out!
Love ya,
l
lori posted a condolence
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Miss you mom. I miss coming to see you at the end of my day and sharing with you my work day. I am glad your resting peacefully though. You fought so hard. You taught me the value of friendships in your final days. Thank you. I have stopped pushing others away.
l
lori posted a condolence
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
hey mom. thinking of you. wishing you were here to tell about my day. poor dad has to listen to me now. you would be really proud of him. love you mom.
l
lori posted a condolence
Monday, November 2, 2009
Hi mom, sure do miss you today. Wish you were hear. I really could use you by my side today. Things are so good right now. Miss you wish you were near me. need some comfort tonight.
D
Diane posted a condolence
Monday, November 2, 2009
Hey Carol, it's me your pesty sister. I really miss you and it hasn't really set in your not here any more. I really thought you would beat this disease but as you have said I was always in denial. At least that is what you said how I was with Sharon. I don't think this is fair that you both had to get sick like this. I think alot about that last good week I spent with you, the week of Labor Day. Watchng your soaps and cooking shows and laughing together when you tried to get a point out or tried to direct me to get what you needed. I will miss you always and think of you everyday. Even though I am not alone I feel very lonely without you.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Hi Mom,
This is still so surreal to me. I feel like I am going to open the door and you will be there. The dream will end. However, the only dream that ends is the one with you in it. Reality is here to stay and you are not. The holidays are coming, I would like them not to. They were always the thing you enjoyed most. It won't be the same. Life is just a motion without emotion. Take care Mom. I love you, I will stop to see you tomorrow. I miss you. Wish you were here to share stuff with. I have lost that. Now my sharing of the little things good and bad stay with me. Rest in peace mom, Rest in peace...Your loved forever in our hearts and eternally missed.
H
Hi mom posted a condolence
Thursday, October 29, 2009
You know everyday I learn more and more from you even still. Your amazing, you still teach me from a far. I have wittnessed so much even after you left that has forever changed me. Although I miss you, I am glad your free from pain. Thank you for those you sent my way to help me through this. They have been great. Many promised you to help me, a few have lived up to that promise and help me alot. love you
H
Hey Erm posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
I miss our talks. I wish I could talk to you to sort stuff out. So much going on right now. It's tough alone.
Love you miss you wish you didn't have to go.
H
Hi posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Having a tough day again. I know hang in there. It's so up and down. Weird. Wish I could talk to you. You always fixed things. Anyway, Miss you, love you
H
Hey There posted a condolence
Monday, October 26, 2009
Hi it's me again. see mom I am still your daily pain calling on you daily. I miss you. Brey and Anthony called me Carol yesterday. I felt good what an honor. I had a hard time at the cemetary but I was glad I was there with you. Each day will be better, you gave me lovely memories. Rest in peace mom. Rest in peace now. Let Brey and Anthony and everyone who loves you know your ok.
Love you eternally Mom.
J
JEANNIE posted a condolence
Sunday, October 25, 2009
JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT YOU CAN REST. LORI IS GOING TO BE OK. SHE WILL MISS YOU. STAY NEAR HER.
L
Lori posted a condolence
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Hi Mom, Danielle bowled today and she had a little trouble. She sure could use your help. Dad bought her some new bowling shoes. He said my old ones were older than dirt and most shoes don't last that long. I'm thinking of bowling again. I don't know when i will fit it in but you know me I love to cram as much as possible in life so I don't have to think. Trying hard to keep my mind busy lately so I don't feel the pain. Anyway, Dad said he wants to take us all cosmic bowling. He missed you so much. We all do, you where the center of our lives and our rocks. Still writing thank you cards for you. You touched so many lives, I wish I were half the women you were. I guess I have room to grow. Although Maryanne tells me I have so much of you in me that when she sees me she feels the comfort of you. I'm gonna go see brey and anthony tomorrow. They are having such a hard time missing Gramma Carol. I will give them a hug and kiss for you. I will also stop to see you as well. Miss you like crazy Mom. Take care.....Till we meet again.
K
Kristina Burchard posted a condolence
Friday, October 23, 2009
Scott & Family - My thoughs and prayers are with you during this difficult time. God Bless!
m
me posted a condolence
Friday, October 23, 2009
Hi mom. Ive been thinking of you. I miss you and talking to you on the phone everyday. Laughing with you and telling you about my day. You will always be with me mom. I have support that you have sent me and thank you for that. I am searching for a new path to walk without you, but I can't see it yet. Life has been crazy without your advice to straighten me out. I know I'm always a mess and you had a way of fixing that. I am trying to stay calm and not get like you use to say Aunt Whitie. But I am who I am. Anyway, I will try to visit you this weekend. Sunday maybe. I love you. This is so hard. I laugh, you though I was your drill sargent ha.
H
Hey Mom posted a condolence
Sunday, October 18, 2009
I am sure Dad told you today, Danielle's average is going up every saturday. She's picking up where you left off. Who knows maybe she will be third in the nation too. Rest in peace mom we saw your resting place and no messing around your parents are right there. Love ya Lori
J
JEANNIE posted a condolence
Sunday, October 18, 2009
LORI IS HURTING AND SHE WILL MISS YOU I WILL DO MY BEST TO LOOK AFTER HER SEND HER A SIGN TO LET HER KNOW YOUR OK AND ARE NEAR HER. I KNOW YOUR PROUD OF ALL OF THEM
K
Kathy & Rex posted a condolence
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Scott & Family,
Our thoughts & prayers are with you...
L
Lori posted a condolence
Friday, October 16, 2009
Mom I miss you greatly. You were my hero. I can only hope to be a glimmer of the women you were. We Love you and miss you but I'm glad your with the Lord and you no longer suffer. Till we meet again. I love you
J
JEANNIE posted a condolence
Monday, October 12, 2009
I KNOW YOUR A PEACE NOW YOU SURE WILL BE MISS.
P
Patricia Carroll, SSJ posted a condolence
Monday, October 12, 2009
Please know of our prayers at this time of loss from the Sisters at Nazareth Convent.
D
Dorit (Hunsinger) Jeffers posted a condolence
Sunday, October 11, 2009
I was so sorry to read about your loss. My thoughts and prayers go out to you Dick, Scott and Lori. I worked with Carol at Burroughs (Todd Co.) so many many years ago and she was a great friend.
J
JEANNIE posted a condolence
Sunday, October 11, 2009
YOU WILL BE MISS. GOD BLESS YOU. I'LL KEEP MY EYE ON LORI.
M
Mom and Dad Chamot posted a condolence
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Lori we will miss your Mom's fun and laughter that she always gave us. She was a champion for her family and a very talented person. She will be sadly missed by us. May she rest in Peace with the Lord.
T
Tom, Cindy, Parker & Abby Chamot posted a condolence
Saturday, October 10, 2009
We are so sorry to hear about Carol's passing. Just know that we are here for you if you need anything at all. Love of hugs, Tom, Cindy & the kids.
J
Jane O'Meara Kehoe posted a condolence
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Dick, Scott, Lori & family, I was so saddened to hear of Carol's passing. I hope your memories bring you peace now and comfort in the days to come. You are all in my thoughts.
Jane
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Tim, Mary Ann, Anthony & Brayden Capuano posted a condolence
Friday, October 9, 2009
Our hearts go out to all of the family during this difficult time. Carol was a wonderful person. She was a loving wife, caring mother, doting grandmother and a wonderful friend. She had a quick sense of humor and wit that would bring a laugh to a room in a minute. She always told it like it was, that was one of her best qualities. She treated all of us like family and our boys always respected her as a Gramma. She will be sadly missed by all of us, but certainly not forgotten. God needed another Angel and he picked one of the best. She will be forever in our hearts.
d
debbie knope brooks posted a condolence
Friday, October 9, 2009
dick and family,
so sorry to hear about your loss, know that it has been years since we've seen yous, but i remember what a very funny lady she was. our hearts and prayers go out to you all. debbie and family
Z
Zia Geri & Zio Desi posted a condolence
Friday, October 9, 2009
Can't tell you how sorry we are to hear of Your Mom's passing. We always enjoyed what little time we had with her and Dick. She will surely be missed by one and all. May God Bless her and all her family.
D
Donald Shafer posted a condolence
Friday, October 9, 2009
Carol was a great lady and will be sorely missed, both by myself and our Sunday a.m. bowling league. My condolences to her family.
C
Carol Dedes posted a condolence
Friday, October 9, 2009
So sorry to hear of your "great" loss. So many have lost a good friend.
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Marlene & Paul Webber posted a condolence
Friday, October 9, 2009
Carol was a great person, always had the right words to say. You will never be forgotten. We will miss you. Our prayers are with you. We love you.
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Florence Presler posted a condolence
Friday, October 9, 2009
I was so sad to get that phone call last night. There are just no words for your loss. Carol was one of those special people that you didn't have to see everyday but you still know she was your friend. I will miss her so very much. Love to you all.
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Steven and Lisa Murawski posted a condolence
Friday, October 9, 2009
We are so sorry for your loss. Carol was a special lady. She was very loved and will be sadly missed. Our thoughts & prayers go out to you. All our love to you.
Steve & Lisa Murawski
Visitation
Family and friends are invited to call at Miller Funeral Homes Inc. (3325 Winton Road South) on Sunday 2-4 & 7-9 PM.
Service Info
Private
Interment
Private